It seems as though we are all trying to be someplace else and to be someone else. I think I might really like it when someone else would like to be somewhere else with me. This thought, like all else, is appreciated the most after it leaves you with warm memories of the way his chest would turn a ridiculous shade of red and i'd end up leaving ( Read more... )

oh no, this is not how it's supposed to be. Everything and absolutely nothing has changed. it's not my place and it's not my right. i fucking hope she appreciates all that you are

( I got my hair cut... )

a voice says don't bother screaming ( Read more... )

It's always nice to know that I don't even count. But good for me to be reminded. It's worse to feel like you got "played" by the antithesis of a player. Damn it sucks to be the one that didn't matter!

It's okay, I have awesome hair. Pictures to come. (And the hairstylist asked why my hair's falling out...)

"The Devil's Rejects" was an awesome/gory/i dont know what movie. I might want to see it again? Other than an abnoxiously drunk asshole, good times.

Oh, I remember why I was so dead set on getting out of certain things. It's easy to fall into all that petty shit but it gets so tiring! And I'm inviting my friends to someone else's party ( Read more... )

It is really sad when you become a regurgitation of bad people, and you wear that distinction with pride.

OMG I just tonight realized how completely full of suck I am. I am leaving tomorrow at 4:00am to fly out to Texas, and I won't be back until maybe Tuesday. I said I'd stop by Cerritos College this Sunday...but I will be driving back to California from Texas!!!! Hopefully I will be in town by Monday evening, and I might have the chance to say ( Read more... )

I like to pretend that I matter in situations where I don't. I fucking know I don't and my gut still drops to the floor when I think I see that car pull up in front of my work with that silhouette. It's moronic and completely futile and based on nothing remotely close to the truth. I'm fucking lonely and beyond delusional somedays. It's a big ( Read more... )

asian logic....GO!

seven chapters in three hours...

wish me luck...

hrmph...oh dear!