JongKyung
JongKyung
By: Red_Prince22
He was never mine to begin with.
A drabble for -iloveyou-
Prequel of : "This"
In my years of being an actress, I have learned how to cry on cue and even how to supress my tears. In many ways I have done this, even from the man I loved, Kim Jonghyun.
I was elated whenever I heard him say I was his type, more so when he asked me out for the first time. It was 2010 on my calendar, when he had asked me out on our first date. With my all-too giddy smile, and his well-off smirk, our days together were rather different from my imagination. It was during mid-october when we decided to make it public... mid-october was the time his smile started to faded more than it did when he was with me.
I was still in an acting contract at that time, while he was planning out and practicing for the SHINee World tour. We didn't really mind the work hours too much because we still managed to meet from time to time. It was on one day, when I had taken a break from shooting to meet him at the small cafe downtown. It was usually secluded on work days so we would meet there from time to time.
I noticed before I spoke to him, his eyes were red and sniffling sounds came from him. He checked the time on his phone (probably to check if I was arriving soon). I saw in the corner of my eye, the wallpaper on his phone, which used to be Kibum and Him together, was now replaced by our only picture he took with that phone.
I broke the tension with a quick: "Hi... Oppa?"
"S-Sekyung! I didn't see you there." He jolted.
He didn't see me there? Ever since that day, he seldom smiled the way he used to. He would stare blankly at the wallpaper at his phone before turning off the lock screen. He would sometimes, as I would notice, wince whenever I called him "Oppa".
Then came one night, we watched movies up until past midnight. He still looked worried about something so I asked him what was bothering him. He wouldn't of course say because I knew it was personal, but as his girlfriend I had the right to know what made him sad.
"You can trust me." Was the only words that left before he teared up.
"It's nothing, really." He curled up his legs to his chest, no even inching closer to me.
"Jonghyun, I've been your girlfriend for almost 9 months, I know when you're okay. Now tell me what has gotten your attention."
His attention span wasn't the biggest but he still could manage to focus on important matters, he had to say something sooner.
"Maybe you should go talk to Kibum about this." I suggested.
"The one who has been getting my attention... is Kibum."
Of course, it was his best friend. This went on with him explaining how they avoided each other ever since october. He even mentioned how one day he and Key had this fight about him not focusing on work.
He was on the verge of tears by that time. Then it all clicked.
I was never really on his mind for the past 9 months; Kibum was. I guess the publicity of Jonghyun and Key being paired up by fans wasn't a good thing, and to hide it... He chose me. Jonghyun, was the man I loved so endearly.... The heart I thought was mine to keep... Was owned by someone else. He was never mine to begin with.
Kibum was a good person, and so was Jonghyun. They were innocent, silly boys, who did nothing but care for each other as best friends. I guess they never realized they loved each other until... well... That night.
"Jonghyun... I think you need to go to him." I let out a sigh. Who was I to keep him when I didn't own him.
"B-but... Sekyung..." His eyes were my favourite. But I guess he wasn't looking for mine in the first place.
"Kibum must be worried abou you. Look at the time; It's two-fourty-seven am." I gave him the signal to return, return to his Kibum.
"Sekyung..."
"No need to explain... Just go home."
And with a few blinks and a short 'Thank you'... he left.
Jonghyun was a character. Admirable and sweet, strong but sentimental, handsome yet eyes of a puppy. He was mine for a while, but he never was.
I understand how much those two boys had grown to be close, and 9 months couldn't compare to their bond. At the end... I was happy for them. Even now, at 2013, those boys have had the roughest of times. They finally had more confidence and happiness in each other. Save for the fact I helped them.
But for the first time in my whole career, that night when he left, I failed to do my own talent.
I cried.
A/N: lol "Ay cray" = inspired by my brother :))
Okay, so a lot of JongKey fans (such as I) hated JongKyung, but guys, like most of us, Sekyung was a girl, possibly in love.
We had no right to be mad at her, same as all other ships like MinKey, JongTae, etc, because we don't know what happens behind the scenes.... Well JongKey has obviously set free this year anyway....
Give Sekyung some credit, without her breaking up with Jonghyun, JongKey could've sunk... But lol right now JongKey upgraded from the sinking titanic into the best speed boat ever- Full throttle too. XDD
As for the "I cried" part, she meant she failed because she knew she wasn't suppose to cry when Jjong left... but she did.
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