ouch.

[red_queen]

Well, I finally heard back from X. Among other things, he let me know that he is involved in a rather serious relationship. And he carefully, but bluntly, told me not to hold on to any hope that we'll ever get back together. He was right to do so; holding on to hope has not done me any good. Well. Now I have closure. He sent me 2 email messages

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[janetmiles]

I'm sad that you're hurting. I wish you well, and healing, and comfort, and send you virtual messages of strength and support.

[chanaleh]

Oh, God, oh God. I'm sorry. I know this is hard. Believe me, I know.

It's good that you finally got to talk, though.

And I'll see you Thursday. *hug*

[ratphooey]

Don't forget to breathe. You will get through this, and you will be happy again.

I've always felt that the best way to honor what was good in a relationship is to learn from my mistakes, so the next one will be better. Don't know if that insight is of any use to you.

[red_queen]

thanks. argghh. I'm still shaking. I have a work deadline and I have done *nothing* today. I'm going to go talk w/ my manager and ask him what corners I can cut to get this draft done by tomorrow. I want to go home right now and curl into a ball and shake -- and if any of my promises to myself to be responsible and reliable are to mean anything, i have to stay here and get things done.

I just went over to my brother's office and cried on him for half an hour. Bless him for letting me. I'm still so scared and so sad. And so lonely. He pointed out that this has been an ulcerating sore for 9 months, and maybe now I'll start to heal.

[coraline]

*hugs*
i'm sorry you are hurting. i hope you can heal and move on and um all that other good stuff that everyone else has said.
if you want to come over for tea sometime, let me know.