Comments | red_queen: lameass week and anniversaries

red_queen

lameass week and anniversaries

Feb 12, 2005 00:56

Sigh. This has been a really lameass week. I've been twitchy about work, twitchy about sleeping, and letting my life get really chaotic. I've been getting into work really late, and staying late, and not being very productive, and feeling really guilty about it. I'm gonna take my laptop home this weekend, again, but this time, dammit, I need to do ( Read more... )

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marykaykare February 11 2005, 23:30:45 UTC

It took me 5 years to fully get over losing the Love of My Life. It's a forward and backward thing with no charted path to take. Good luck.

I hesitate to ask this but have you and your shrink discussed medication for your depression? It has been a real life saver for me. Your description of this all sounds so very familiar... Especially the house-keeping problem. A clean and orderly house is so important for me -- it helps me stay calm. When it gets out of hand -- as it has a bit with the surgery -- I get very antsy. It isn't so bad this time because I know it isn't my fault and it'll get better when I can move around more easily.

MKK

red_queen February 12 2005, 00:12:27 UTC

Oh boy do I discuss medication. No problemo there -- I've been on meds since '92. It's just that the damned things wear off. My life kinda fell apart over the past 4 years -- started with losing my mom in July '00 and kept going -- and since then, I've been very unsure as to whether my meds work. Sigh. So I keep tinkering. Right now, it's Lexapro, and Cymbalta for depression, Concerta and Strattera for ADD, and Trazodone for sleep. I've tried most of the SSRIs, and Effexor, Wellbutrin, and one of the tricyclis. Sigh ( ... )

marykaykare February 12 2005, 00:30:43 UTC

Whew, some people react -- um -- negatively to suggestions fo meds. I had trouble finding the right one too, and then the right dose of that. I take 225mg of Effexor every day and use a light box equinox to equinox. And it can still be a battle in the winter time!

Yep, we'll be at Boskone. I plan to lots of sitting and ordering people about. If they refuse me I shall hit them with my cane. I'm currently scheduled for 2 panels Fri night, one on Sat morning and 2 on Sunday morning. That makes me easy to find!

MKK

ratphooey February 12 2005, 05:13:10 UTC

Badly-Lit Ages? That's genius.

I'm always glad to see you posting, although I'm sad that you're sad.

How about dealing with one box a day? Just one, not too overwhelming, but it's progress.

lyonesse February 12 2005, 04:54:11 UTC

*hugs*

i've learned to have a terrible memory for dates, partly to reduce the significance of particular anniversaries. (though the "ides of march" still gets me every time :)

redbird February 12 2005, 05:11:39 UTC

I'm not going to Boskone, but I am going to be in your neck of the woods--specifically, Arlington--next weekend, visiting a friend. We could meet for lunch or the like, schedules permitting.

roadnotes February 12 2005, 06:35:02 UTC

I'm here. Not sure what to say, but here, listening.

dreams_of_wings February 12 2005, 08:03:09 UTC

Hang in there.
Maybe we should get together some time soon and lend each other mutual support, as you so kindly offered to do last week. Lord knows I can use the company, especially of an evening.

AND you have Lord Peter Whimsy and Harriet Vane on DVD. :)

Let me know what works for you. And I can help you clean, too, if you need help with that.

*hugs*