i feel like my skin is melting off ( Read more... )

it starts like a seasoned fighter; scratching and hitting and pushing, sparingly, but always at the times it will mean the most. Always letting me know who really runs the show. Holding back when im in a stronger mood, charging when he knows i cant take anymore. How can i have let this dig down so deep, that no matter what i do, im still left ( Read more... )

sometimes my heart feels squeezed,
and i get the silly notion
that i gotta let it all out.

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i am mentally anorexic or maybe more bulimic. you know, indulge deprive reward punish ( Read more... )

falling over and over and over.
starting to feel like a newborn
obsessed with her feet and not realising
the weight of reaching is causing the flop

its happening all over again ( Read more... )

Im thinking we're falling apart and letting it happen. Not in the obvious way, no, but you and I can see it. I really get scared sometimes, as if it could really ruin me. The funny thing is im not so sure i care about us, sometimes. Its been so long, and at times so hard, i think im done working at it. I really want to se what happens when i ( Read more... )

i am determined
to be warm again
to melt away these years of poison
and cracks and self deprivation

to spread these peeps
and really let it all soak in

drinking whiskey and thinking of older times, a bittersweet combination.