Fuckin' leave it to me, Seriously fuckin' leave it to me to NOT be happy when something great occurs in my life and yet I can't fuckin' enjoy it because I have such a huge fuckin' Inferiority Complex that I can't fuckin' get past that automatically makes me paranoid at the drop of a fuckin' hat. Seriously, I have no clue how I do anything ( Read more... )

Hey it's me. I decided instead of talking I would just tell you a story, I'm sorry for directing you here...I'm not apologizing for what I'm saying, I'm apologizing because I feel like a jerk for saying it. I apologize because 80% of the people who hear it won't care and I apologizes because I fear I might lose you as a friend because of it. And in ( Read more... )

I've been a fool for a long awhile now. In fact I've pretty bad lately. I don't mean bad, physically I just mean mentally. I realized I'm a very jealous and petty guy. I realize that my self-esteem has been generally scarce, and I've been generally beating myself up about it. There are somethings that we do to ourselves that we know will do us no ( Read more... )

Ya know, the interesting thing about us as people is that we are all so different and yet so much the same. We all have come in contact with the same feelings every now and again. Some move on from these feelings and decide to gain a positive effect from them, others use them as an excuse to retreat. Me, I've been using them as an excuse to retreat ( Read more... )

Funny thing, I really don't where to start. I'm honestly trying to think positive and in some respects I've managed to get that part down and yet theres still this nagging feeling of anger and saddness. I'll tell you about where that comes from a little later...maybe never...not sure exactly. I've been keeping busy mostly reading comicbooks, but I ( Read more... )

I'm kinda in a funky mood. Don't ask me why. I'm not in a bad mood, No, this isn't one of those Eugene is bitching entries...although I might start bitching later on in this entry but at least not in the intro. I've been trying to realize things about myself, I realize that I am TOO self aware. This is one of the main reasons I don't like hanging ( Read more... )

Hello, hello my duckies, it's me again. Your Humble Narrator, for some reason in a chipper mood. Chipper hm, can I say that ? Is that a word ? Oh well, Chipper it is. Yes, a rather chipper mood. I'm just trying to get all my frustrations off my chest as easily as I can without exploding or going completely mad (lol), and for the most part I guess I ( Read more... )

HUZZA ! Your Humble Narrator is back and for the first time in a long time I'm actually in a good mood. A good enough mood to deal with all the gloom and glum I've been dealing with. I'm fighting my way outta the fog kiddies ! THAT'S RIGHT ! I'm putting up both fists and punching this mood I've been in lately. But first, allow me to explain myself ( Read more... )

for those of you who know me, you may know i've never been the kinda guy to come right out and say things. hell, everytime I did it's caused me nothing but pain and heartache. so i prefer to just keep my actual feelings or at least the really strong one to myself. i'm learning now that this isn't an exactly healthy practice as it has made me cowarD ( Read more... )

Something is wrong with me, something is so very, very wrong with me. One of the many things I hate about the Summer, aside from the mind blowing heat is the length of time. Days seem to last so much longer and if you're not busy or do anything, time can kill. Call it cabin fever, or stir craziness or whatever the fuck, but I have been going nuts ( Read more... )