Baristas on Parade
Last night was the last band concert. Emotional. Today is my mom's birthday, last choir concert, 2nd to last day of high school (and required school in general), and my 1st day training as a barista. Emotional. Tonight when we do the senior song and I walk off stage and stop singing.... extremely emotional. The only "last" I've cried at all year was on closing night of Carousel. I didn't even cry at Much Ado, and I don't think anyone who wasn't in that could understand all that that ensued. Tonight I will cry, as will my mom, and a good portion of my family. All of my siblings and best friends will be there. There's no way I couldn't cry. I want to cry. I've been feeling like maybe I was void of any emotion after closing of Carousel. I'm Nicole, I'm emotional, I cry! And when I don't (especially when I think I will)- it is so weird. Crying lets me grieve about the change and then move on. Not crying keeps it bottled up. This has been a difficult year in general- I know I didn't make many friends during Carousel, and there are so many things I would have done differently if I had realized what I was doing. However, I don't want to regret anything because I did learn a ton. The next six months are going to be soooo crazy. I'm not really looking forward to this transition. I'm afraid that within my family there will be some turmoil. This is starting to sound morbid. I'm not worried about anything or upset- I'm just writing down what is rolling around in my head, because if I don't, I'll never have to deal with it.
Ok. Done with that. My hour and a 1/2 of training today was mucho fun and I'm very excited to learn more. I love the people I'll be working with and the whole place is just awesome. I'm ready to become a college-aged person. Looking back I can already see areas where a lot of growth has taken place. I love that. I love that I learned something and didn't just stay the same. Tomorrow I have Spanish and Adv. Human Bio finals- neither of which will be very difficult. I am in the Baccalaureate (sp?) worship band, and those practices have been soooo much fun!!! I love singing when it doens't have to be perfect vowels and dynamics. It's so freeing. Plus I'm getting to know some folks that I didn't know before. And of course, in true Nicole fashion, I'm starting to crush on one of those new folks. I'm so lame. I crush so easily! Ahhh! But then they go away just as quickly. Ok... I've taken up way too much time rambling about crap. So... Adios!!!
Ok. Done with that. My hour and a 1/2 of training today was mucho fun and I'm very excited to learn more. I love the people I'll be working with and the whole place is just awesome. I'm ready to become a college-aged person. Looking back I can already see areas where a lot of growth has taken place. I love that. I love that I learned something and didn't just stay the same. Tomorrow I have Spanish and Adv. Human Bio finals- neither of which will be very difficult. I am in the Baccalaureate (sp?) worship band, and those practices have been soooo much fun!!! I love singing when it doens't have to be perfect vowels and dynamics. It's so freeing. Plus I'm getting to know some folks that I didn't know before. And of course, in true Nicole fashion, I'm starting to crush on one of those new folks. I'm so lame. I crush so easily! Ahhh! But then they go away just as quickly. Ok... I've taken up way too much time rambling about crap. So... Adios!!!