I love You, I Mean It... (Part 1)
pairing: Kyusung, Yewon, Kisung (past)
rating: PG-13
genre: drama, romance
A/N notes: this is the sequel of is fate always this cruel?
thanks to @kijwij for supporting me! ^^ i write this for you... I'll try to make it chaptered
This night is one of the coldest night in Seoul. A good looking guy walking through dim-lighted street beside the Han river. Even though he was wearing a very thick coat but the shivers still evident from his body. Thank God it wasn’t snowing. The sky was so clearly that even the stars twinkled, it looked like it was blinking to him. He smiled his megawatt smile. Ah~ Sungie would love this nite view, he thought. He looked around when he saw a bridge. There, he saw a tall skinny figure stood on the bridge. I think I know him, isn’t that Kyuhyun? But what is he doing there?
Kyuhyun looked so tired. Sorrow filled all over his face. His mind always back to the time when Yesung accepted Siwon’s confession. It hurted him so much that all he wanted is just gone from this cruel and unfair world. Without he realized, he drove all the way and ended up in this bridge. Maybe I should end my life, there’s nothing more that I want. All I want is him! Why do I never get him!
“Why the world is so cruel to me!!” Kyuhyun shouted.
Is Kyuhyun losing his mind? Wait... he climbs the bridge.. Don’t tell me...
“Kyu! What are you doing?! Are you out of your mind?” Kibum ran to the bridge.
“Huh, kibum?”
“Are you trying to do something stupid? Get down right now!!!”
But then, Kyuhyun remembered about the event Yesung cried in his arms because of the man behind him. He is outraged. He turned around. In a flash he already in front of Kibum and without a warning he punched him, hard.
“What's wrong with you?! In the moment you look so desperate and now without any good reason you punched me hard in the face! Are you stupid?!”
“I am! I am stupidly in love with him and stupid enough to let you had him! And now I'm the stupidest person ever for letting him in someone else's arms for the 2nd time!”
“Wait.. what? Kyu.... are you talking about..... Yesungie?”
Kyuhyun didn’t answer him, he just cried.
“Wait, so right now Yesungie have another boyfriend?” he nodded.
“And it wasn't you?”
“Just what the hell are you trying to say, Kibum?!”
“Omg, so all this time I've been sacrifiying myself for nothing.. I thought that you guys are together
right now!”
“Kibum, enough! My mind is so puzzled so stop playing with words”
“Look, I'm just going to say this once okay. Yesungie, that angel of yours, loves you!”
“Huh?”
“Are you stupid?”
“What did you say?”
“I knew it from the beginning of our relationship. He always talked about you. He felt so lonely when you decided to transfer to another school. He cried all the time. I couldn't make him to stop crying. The day he smiled is when you phoned him. Our dates are filled with talks about how much he missed you. I knew he liked me. But not to the extent that he loves me. So I decided that it was better for us to break up. I knew it will hurt him, moreover I didn't give him one good reason at all. But what can I do? If I keep our relationship that way then I would just end up hurt him and myself even more. Don't you ever realize it, Kyu? He only needs you. No one else.”
“But he's with siwon right now”
“Did he say that he loves him?”
“No he didn't... “
“Then I'm right, he still loves you. He just too dense when it comes to things about love.”
“But I don't have any courage....”
“Look, brace yourself. Confess to him. I know he waits you. Please, don't make my sacrifice goes for
nothing...”
Kyuhyun just stood still. He tried to digest all Kibum’s words but somehow it felt so hard to believe.
“Kibum, be honest, are you still love him?”
“Yes, with all my heart. That's why I can't bear to see him sad all the time. Love should bring happyness not sadness. You're the one who can make him smile, trust me.”
Kyuhyun POV
I got home with cloudy thought. Yesungie loves me? Did Kibum really tell me the truth? Can I trust him? I don't wanna get another hope yet just to be crushed once again... my phone rang, gave a signal a text message has been received.
From : Yesungie~
Kyu, I know you don't wanna get a bother from me but I worry, I can sense something's wrong just by hearing your voice. Are you doing fine there? If you need my help just text me okay...love you, Kyu~
Love me? Did he really mean it or just for friendship?
From : Kyuhyun
Yesungie, thanks for asking. I'm fine. Love you too~ And I mean it...
Huh? I mean it? Why do I have to say that? I’m so stupid. I hope it’s not gonna confusing him. Kibum’s words is really intoxicating me...
The next morning
They met in the cafetaria the next morning. Yesung came with Siwon. Their hands intertwined. Kyuhyun already expected this.
“Hey, Guys! Something is different, did I miss something? Is there something that I need to know?” thought I really wish I don’t have to know, Kyu’ thought.
“Well, Kyu, uhm....”
Knew Yesung's nervousness, Siwon spoke first "Kyu... me and sungie, we're dating"
“Oh...”
Ok Kyuhyun, say something smart. Kyuhyun tried to look into Yesung's eyes but he turned away. Kyuhyun felt something was wrong with his best friend.
“Well, I guess congratulation then...” Kyuhyun tried to smile genuinely.
“I hope everything goes well for both of you”
1 week after
Kyuhyun POV
I tried hard, really hard, to accept the fact that he belongs to Siwon. Everytime I saw them together I feel like my heart being ripped into two. But I have to bear it for the sake of our friendship. I will do anything for him, including neglecting my own crushed heart.
My ringing phone interupting my thought. It’s from my angel.
“Yoboseyo~”
“Kyu, can I talk to you after your class over?”
“Of course”
“Okay, I'll meet you in front of your apartment then.”
Without wasting my time I run all the way after the class is over. When I get there I saw him standing in front of my apartment shifting around.
“So, Yesungie, is there something wrong?”
“Let's talk inside your room.”
I sensed something was wrong with my bestfriend behaviour.
“Now, Yesungie, speak up. You know you can't lie to me.”
“Kyu, are you happy knowing that I'm dating Siwon?”
“Of course I am, why shouldn't I?”
“But...” Yesung hesitated.
“Hey, Sungie, is there..”
Without finishing my words, Yesung hugged me tightly and cried hard. I confused, my friend is supposed to be happy but why did he....
“What happened, Sungie? Why are you crying? Stop it, please. I can't bear it to see you cry.”
“Please, Kyu, say it.. Say that you hate me, say that you hate me for dating Siwon!”
Huh, what's wrong with Yesung?
“Why should I say it? You love him, aren't you?”
“No, I don't!”
“Sungie, don’t say that. You're not even try it, take your relationship slow, I know your feeling will change”
“I don't wanna change it!”
“Huh? Why?”
End of Kyuhyun POV
“I....I..” I love you, that was Yesung trying to say but he was afraid it would ruin their friendship.
“I...am afraid Kyu, afraid that it will be end up like my relationship with Kibum” Why do i said that? Omg, Yesungie you’re so stupid~
Kyuhyun POV
Here I thought he would say that he loves me. Maybe I got my hope too high. But still...
“Kyu...”
“Yes?”
“Thanks for always by my side. I... love you”
He hugs me. Oh... How I wish he really mean those words to me.. What I can do is just hugging him back tighter.
rating: PG-13
genre: drama, romance
A/N notes: this is the sequel of is fate always this cruel?
thanks to @kijwij for supporting me! ^^ i write this for you... I'll try to make it chaptered
This night is one of the coldest night in Seoul. A good looking guy walking through dim-lighted street beside the Han river. Even though he was wearing a very thick coat but the shivers still evident from his body. Thank God it wasn’t snowing. The sky was so clearly that even the stars twinkled, it looked like it was blinking to him. He smiled his megawatt smile. Ah~ Sungie would love this nite view, he thought. He looked around when he saw a bridge. There, he saw a tall skinny figure stood on the bridge. I think I know him, isn’t that Kyuhyun? But what is he doing there?
Kyuhyun looked so tired. Sorrow filled all over his face. His mind always back to the time when Yesung accepted Siwon’s confession. It hurted him so much that all he wanted is just gone from this cruel and unfair world. Without he realized, he drove all the way and ended up in this bridge. Maybe I should end my life, there’s nothing more that I want. All I want is him! Why do I never get him!
“Why the world is so cruel to me!!” Kyuhyun shouted.
Is Kyuhyun losing his mind? Wait... he climbs the bridge.. Don’t tell me...
“Kyu! What are you doing?! Are you out of your mind?” Kibum ran to the bridge.
“Huh, kibum?”
“Are you trying to do something stupid? Get down right now!!!”
But then, Kyuhyun remembered about the event Yesung cried in his arms because of the man behind him. He is outraged. He turned around. In a flash he already in front of Kibum and without a warning he punched him, hard.
“What's wrong with you?! In the moment you look so desperate and now without any good reason you punched me hard in the face! Are you stupid?!”
“I am! I am stupidly in love with him and stupid enough to let you had him! And now I'm the stupidest person ever for letting him in someone else's arms for the 2nd time!”
“Wait.. what? Kyu.... are you talking about..... Yesungie?”
Kyuhyun didn’t answer him, he just cried.
“Wait, so right now Yesungie have another boyfriend?” he nodded.
“And it wasn't you?”
“Just what the hell are you trying to say, Kibum?!”
“Omg, so all this time I've been sacrifiying myself for nothing.. I thought that you guys are together
right now!”
“Kibum, enough! My mind is so puzzled so stop playing with words”
“Look, I'm just going to say this once okay. Yesungie, that angel of yours, loves you!”
“Huh?”
“Are you stupid?”
“What did you say?”
“I knew it from the beginning of our relationship. He always talked about you. He felt so lonely when you decided to transfer to another school. He cried all the time. I couldn't make him to stop crying. The day he smiled is when you phoned him. Our dates are filled with talks about how much he missed you. I knew he liked me. But not to the extent that he loves me. So I decided that it was better for us to break up. I knew it will hurt him, moreover I didn't give him one good reason at all. But what can I do? If I keep our relationship that way then I would just end up hurt him and myself even more. Don't you ever realize it, Kyu? He only needs you. No one else.”
“But he's with siwon right now”
“Did he say that he loves him?”
“No he didn't... “
“Then I'm right, he still loves you. He just too dense when it comes to things about love.”
“But I don't have any courage....”
“Look, brace yourself. Confess to him. I know he waits you. Please, don't make my sacrifice goes for
nothing...”
Kyuhyun just stood still. He tried to digest all Kibum’s words but somehow it felt so hard to believe.
“Kibum, be honest, are you still love him?”
“Yes, with all my heart. That's why I can't bear to see him sad all the time. Love should bring happyness not sadness. You're the one who can make him smile, trust me.”
Kyuhyun POV
I got home with cloudy thought. Yesungie loves me? Did Kibum really tell me the truth? Can I trust him? I don't wanna get another hope yet just to be crushed once again... my phone rang, gave a signal a text message has been received.
From : Yesungie~
Kyu, I know you don't wanna get a bother from me but I worry, I can sense something's wrong just by hearing your voice. Are you doing fine there? If you need my help just text me okay...love you, Kyu~
Love me? Did he really mean it or just for friendship?
From : Kyuhyun
Yesungie, thanks for asking. I'm fine. Love you too~ And I mean it...
Huh? I mean it? Why do I have to say that? I’m so stupid. I hope it’s not gonna confusing him. Kibum’s words is really intoxicating me...
The next morning
They met in the cafetaria the next morning. Yesung came with Siwon. Their hands intertwined. Kyuhyun already expected this.
“Hey, Guys! Something is different, did I miss something? Is there something that I need to know?” thought I really wish I don’t have to know, Kyu’ thought.
“Well, Kyu, uhm....”
Knew Yesung's nervousness, Siwon spoke first "Kyu... me and sungie, we're dating"
“Oh...”
Ok Kyuhyun, say something smart. Kyuhyun tried to look into Yesung's eyes but he turned away. Kyuhyun felt something was wrong with his best friend.
“Well, I guess congratulation then...” Kyuhyun tried to smile genuinely.
“I hope everything goes well for both of you”
1 week after
Kyuhyun POV
I tried hard, really hard, to accept the fact that he belongs to Siwon. Everytime I saw them together I feel like my heart being ripped into two. But I have to bear it for the sake of our friendship. I will do anything for him, including neglecting my own crushed heart.
My ringing phone interupting my thought. It’s from my angel.
“Yoboseyo~”
“Kyu, can I talk to you after your class over?”
“Of course”
“Okay, I'll meet you in front of your apartment then.”
Without wasting my time I run all the way after the class is over. When I get there I saw him standing in front of my apartment shifting around.
“So, Yesungie, is there something wrong?”
“Let's talk inside your room.”
I sensed something was wrong with my bestfriend behaviour.
“Now, Yesungie, speak up. You know you can't lie to me.”
“Kyu, are you happy knowing that I'm dating Siwon?”
“Of course I am, why shouldn't I?”
“But...” Yesung hesitated.
“Hey, Sungie, is there..”
Without finishing my words, Yesung hugged me tightly and cried hard. I confused, my friend is supposed to be happy but why did he....
“What happened, Sungie? Why are you crying? Stop it, please. I can't bear it to see you cry.”
“Please, Kyu, say it.. Say that you hate me, say that you hate me for dating Siwon!”
Huh, what's wrong with Yesung?
“Why should I say it? You love him, aren't you?”
“No, I don't!”
“Sungie, don’t say that. You're not even try it, take your relationship slow, I know your feeling will change”
“I don't wanna change it!”
“Huh? Why?”
End of Kyuhyun POV
“I....I..” I love you, that was Yesung trying to say but he was afraid it would ruin their friendship.
“I...am afraid Kyu, afraid that it will be end up like my relationship with Kibum” Why do i said that? Omg, Yesungie you’re so stupid~
Kyuhyun POV
Here I thought he would say that he loves me. Maybe I got my hope too high. But still...
“Kyu...”
“Yes?”
“Thanks for always by my side. I... love you”
He hugs me. Oh... How I wish he really mean those words to me.. What I can do is just hugging him back tighter.