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I Wish I'm Not A Coward
pairing : Kyusung, Kisung
rating : PG
genre : drama, romance
A/N notes : inspired bythe song 'Wish you were here' by Avril Lavigne
I know I’m popular. Yes, blame it to my perfect gene that resulted in my gorgeous feature and genius brain. Just by using my physical feature I can get almost anything that I want. Almost all the girls and boys swoon over me. You hear me right. Almost, I repeat it twice. Because I have a certain thing or should I say a certain someone who I want so badly to become mine.
People in this school knew me for being the perfect genius. I’m always topping in every subject in my class. I can do every task that been handed to me. I’m like that. But only in front of this certain person I can become a stupid one. He weakens all my powers just by flashing his innocent smile. Though his smile is not directed to me but it can crumble down my wall of defense in just mere seconds. And yet he doesn’t know he got that kind of impact to me.
My friends told me that he is clumsy. Always saying and doing crazy stuffs. I know he acts like that to get attention and love from his surroundings. I can see a flash of hurt in his eyes everytime they laugh for his clumsiness but he keeps on putting his fake smile. Don’t you know that you already grasped my attention since the first time I laid my eyes on you? What do I have to do to make you realize that I’m longing for you?
He doesn’t know that all his little acts have turned my world upside down. All the things in his has making me helplessly in love with him. His pouting lips that appear everytime he doesn’t understand with the things he faced. His innocent smile that appears everytime he got the thing he likes. His chocolate brown eyes lit up everytime he saw something interesting. And all of him that radiating cuteness is all I’ve been yearning for. How much suffers do I have to take for having this kind of feeling to him?
I love the way he is. With all his quirky acts and childish smile. Nobody is perfect including me. I just don’t understand why people keep on saying that I’m perfect. I’m not perfect. For me the one who is perfect is him. And I try to love him in a perfect way.
One day I found my angel behind a tree on the school backyard. And he was sobbing. Crystals of tears dropped to his flawless cheeks. This sight clenched my heart painfully. Who in this world that made my angel crying? I wanted to tell him that everything is gonna be alright. I wanted to comfort him and saying that he has me by his side. I wanted to hug him and telling that I love him so much I fisted my hands trying to control the anger building up inside of him. I wanted to punch the jerks that made him crying. But in reality I just stood there dumbfounded and done nothing except watched him silently crying. That has proved how stupid and imperfect I am.
I have a habit to lay down on the rooftop everynight just to watch the stars. I watch the stars but my mind traveling around. I always imagine how it feels to have him laying by my side. Damn it. What should I do? What I’d do to have him here? He is always in my head. He always there but right now I wish he was here beside me. What I’d do to have him near? He always in my heart but I need his presence. I wish he was near. What should I do to make him mine? Tell me, please...
I’m coward. I know, you don’t have to say it out loud. I hate for being the one. I want to change it. I always try to build up my courage. And today will be the moment. I’m going to make a drastic move.
I see him walking through the hallway. I know this is my chance. I don’t care with every stare from my friends. I don’t even care with the curious looks from the girls who watch me walk in a confident way. When I just have a few meters from him, I stare at him and give him my sweetest smile. I see him halts his steps.
“Kim Jongwoon, would you go out with me?”
He looks up and gives his gorgeous smile.
“Yes, I’d love to.”
My world crushes into pieces from a confession of a certain boy with a mega-watt smile.
2nd A/N notes : i should write the next chapter of 'I love you, I mean it' but here I am can't help it to wrote this when I heard this song. guys, I suggest u should hear the song while read it. the song is great, i almost shed my tears while i write this. anyway, comments are loved! do comments please *bow*