Comments | redscarfboy: "been up at nights to paint the house ghost white..."

redscarfboy

"been up at nights to paint the house ghost white..."

Oct 05, 2004 14:44

Recently, in a journal entry my sister wrote for her website, she linked to my live journal instead of my website. I guess her reasoning is that I update my live journal more often than I update my website. In fact, it’s been about two and a half months since I’ve updated my website -which is probably a record since it’s been up. There are ( Read more... )

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amorypaz October 5 2004, 17:13:50 UTC

lots of love from florida.
hell at least ur not down here with all the hurricanes.

redscarfboy October 6 2004, 13:36:53 UTC

thanks. I hope all is well with you -you didn't get hit I hope?

Sucked dry and cast aside.... willyumtx October 6 2004, 07:36:24 UTC

I was living on Manhattan for a few months a few years ago. In Midtown West (aka Hell's Kitchen, aka Clinton). I had moved there from Austin, TX to try it out ( ... )

Re: Sucked dry and cast aside.... redscarfboy October 6 2004, 14:43:44 UTC

I don't know. I keep hitting refresh on craigslist and nothing comes up but positions for hot models and legal attorneys. I'm through. I have a damaged sense of what my skills are anyway from last year. This place is seriously in attack mode and I feel like Rather Dashing with a dinky little sword in the face of a sleeping Trogdor. The best I can do is to 'come far' and die trying anyway.

I can't take any more of this. The problem is...I don't know where to turn to or where to go. I just want out, but I don't know how to do that. I have no place to return to but my parents place in the middle of no where. I have no car...so that would be pointless anyway. I'm just at such a loss and I'm sick of fighting.

jecono October 8 2004, 02:17:49 UTC

I whish I could help. I am going through nearly the same stuff...*sigh* And I just keep hoping these things will come to an end and everything will be fine.

part one goodgolly October 8 2004, 06:48:23 UTC

dearyou ( ... )

part two goodgolly October 8 2004, 06:49:39 UTC

06. your mother loves you, and she's worried about you, and watching you struggle is as hard for her as it is for you. i know this, because my own mother telephones about once a week to say things like, "maybe it's time you just took a full-time job in an unrelated field, just to help yourself get by" and "did you know that your sister's payroll company is hiring?" and "did you know that my school district is looking for a secretary?" i feel really guilty about not taking the advice my mother offers, especially because she has been paying my health insurance out-of-pocket for the past year, and i *know* those bills are no kind of cheap. but plenty of other people have offered me advice, too--and my mother is the *only person* who has ever encouraged me to take a job that offers me nothing but financial security. likewise, i've come to realize that my mother loves me, and worries about me--but that doesn't always mean she knows what's best for me.

06. It’s hard to see a reason to keep doing what I’m doing, yet there really ( ... )