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[redsoxdan123]

I can't believe after 4 years it's over.  I know it's for the better, but it still hurts.  Christina always had a place in my heart and I just don't feel like I can get rid of it.  Whenever something happens in my day I always want to call her and tell her about it, but I can't anymore...but more importantly

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[shineon_]

i like how you wrote all this, but i know you mean none of it.

[shineon_]

Dan,

I know you hate me now for whatever reason, and I'm sorry for that.

I had to respond to this because I never read it in the point of view I'm in now, I've only read it in a bitter angry state of mind.
As far as Myles, that lasted less than a month. He was a crazy wierdo who thought he controlled the elements by being wiccan.
But mostly I just wanted to say that you did make me happy. I was young and naive and I didn't realize what I had. I had so much fun with you and I'm sorry my insecurities got the best of me.

I know all my attempts to be your friend or just an aquaintence (sp?) haven't worked up until now, and I don't expect them to now. I just stumbled upon this and wanted you to know I would never ever say that our four years together were a waste. I'm sorry if you see more of the bad than good we had, but that's never how I choose to remember it.

I wish we could be friends. And absolutely none of it at all was your fault.

[redsoxdan123]

wow i didnt even know you still went on LJ! i checked my old e-mail a lil while ago and saw that you replied to that entry. i dont want you to feel really guilty about what happened with us, it just..happened i guess. and you doing the stuff you did is human anyway. its not like you were the worst person ever and no one else was like that...you know? well..i guess thats all i gotta say

[shineon_]

Haha, yeah. I go on pretty often. Usually not to update, just to read other people's, but now a few of the people I normally read aren't friends with my anymore, so there's like nothing to read. lol.
Thanks, though. How are things with you?

[shineon_]

oops that was me, forgot to log in. haha