DB4

[redwaltz]

Wow. It's almost as if I've skipped a day, but since I haven't slept I still am on schedule. :: Chuckles :: I am, however, very sleepy and should have been in bed a while ago. I blame TV Tropes, which I can't stop reading and I have NO IDEA WHY NOT. It is really baffling to the mind.

Anyway. I'm happy to report that something clicked inside my

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[caughtshort]

It's always so hard to find things I like about myself. Things I don't like, I could come up with a list in a snap!

I do have a couple though:

I like that I keep a cool head in stressful, even crisis, situations.
I like that I'm, for the most part, very rational.
I like that I can cook.
I like that I'm becoming more proactive in life and not just allowing things to happen to me that I feel I have no control over.

[redwaltz]

Hey past me: turns out you've got ADHD and something called rejection sensitive dysphoria which contributes heavily to a lot of these problems.
Also everyone feels jealousy; it's just how we deal with it that matters, and as it turns out pretending it doesn't exist isn't particularly useful, either.
Hang in there, though, you'll figure it out eventually. And you'll move to a place with rain and green and trees and be surrounded by amazing friends who love you who you love back.
I love you, past me, you're doing the best with what you've got and what you know.