Which worries me more?
I don't give it much thought, these days. I suppose being gullible is
more risky. No, I know it is. On my "job", believing the wrong person
can get you hurt, or worse. Of course, if that happens, chances are
pretty good that you've got bigger problems on your mind than how stupid
this makes you look, or how badly you screwed up.
Because that happens to everyone. There is no getting around it. No, gods
or immortals or what have you are NOT an exception. Everyone plays the fool
at least once.
Some of us turn it into an art form.
I try not to let either 'fear' dictate what I do. Playing it safe is a
good idea sometimes, whether you mean in professional or personal matters.
However, sooner or later it's "make a move or get out of the game." time.
Asking questions is never a mistake, but refusing to trust people at all
doesn't seem like much of a choice.
[firewalled to KITT, Arcana, Anya, Wes]
Being trusted is the other side of that coin. It's scary. I'm afraid of screwing
up and hurting Sierra, or putting her at risk, much more than I would be alone.
But you can't have one without the other, the good without the bad.
...I had forgotten that yesterday was Mother's Day. She didn't. She asked if we
could do something together, just "because."
I could have refused to let her in, or let Lu in when I was...indisposed last month
and needed help. Stuck to what was only me, what I had control over, but I'm
glad I didn't.[/end firewall]
I try to find a happy medium. I suppose if I had to pick, I'd worry more about
being lied to, or fooling myself, than about asking one too many questions or
entertaining too many doubts.
You can't fly if you won't risk a fall.
Take it from the expert on crash landings...
but, I HAVE managed to land on my feet at least half the time too. Still here,
aren't I?
Muse: Willow Rosenberg
Fandom: Buffy the Vampire Slayer
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