ugh, i had a horrible nightmare last night. one of those ones where i scream in my sleep and it actually comes out so that ryan hears me and has to wake me up ( Read more... )

When people find out I am trying to lose weight, they all have their ideas of what I "should" be doing ( Read more... )

the fourth of july did not really get celebrated in our home this year. we didn't plan it that way ... we went to a keg-killing get together at brandi's tuesday night (they had half of their second keg left from their cookout on saturday, at which we also had a good time), and then met up with them for china buffet for lunch on wednesday, followed ( Read more... )

i was all excited that i'd had this amazing time with imsa kids all weekend and was looking forward to seeing ryan after 4 days away ... and then i got the stomach flu on monday. ugh! i felt horrible most of the drive home, but luckily didn't actually get sick til i got here. it was so bad i almost made ryan take me to the hospital. my blood sugar ( Read more... )

i'm in chicago! yay! i missed it.

home looks different ... the trees in the neighborhood are finally big and i thought maybe i turned into the wrong subdivision. sad. wait, can i call it home anymore when i own my own place?

i'm basically just super excited to be here and get to see my friends, so i can't sleep.

yeah chicago!

ryan and I went up to northeast Ohio this weekend, where there are about 20 wineries in between the lake and the rolling hills in the country. it was absolutely gorgeous in many parts, and we had a lovely time at all sorts of wineries and driving the s2000 through the country and along Lake Erie and generally enjoying each other's company. it was ( Read more... )

I was reading an article in the New Yorker about how much of a pain in the ass James Joyce's grandson, the keeper of his estate, has been to academics, and saw this ( Read more... )

ok, so aside from my mini-breakdown, it was a nice, relaxing weekend. ryan and i hung out with jess and keith a lot, which is awesome. the four of us have so much fun together; we just click better than anyone else i've met here ( Read more... )

so i've gained some weight in the last couple months. not a lot, like 5 pounds. but i was already at what i said would be the heaviest i'd ever let myself get. and this weekend, i LOST IT. not the weight, my mind. i was crying about how did i end up fat and ugly and why do you want to be with me ryan? and i wasn't even pms-ing ( Read more... )

i've decided to go visit two high school buddies in nyc ... one is a friend who lives in la, and although i kept saying i was going to visit, tickets are expensive and it's a long flight for a weekend. so since she's in new york with her boy for the summer and i've never been and they won't be at the reunion, i'm going the end of july! bought my ( Read more... )