appointments post

[refinedmaestro]

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[ACTION, June 10th]

[polishrule]

[Poland got the note that Frederic left for him under his door. He'd wanted to go and say something as soon as he'd heard about Helios. But this kind of relationship was a whole new ballpark and Poland was trying his hardest not to be too impulsive and ruin everything.

So he comes over and softly knocks on the door.]

[ACTION]

[refinedmaestro]

[He sits back down and offers a seat to the other in his lap.] Of course everything's fine, why wouldn't it be?

[ACTION]

[polishrule]

[He sits down in his lap and wraps his arms around him.] Well, uh, your friend died? You came back from a draft?

[ACTION]

[refinedmaestro]

[He wraps his arms around Poland in return then trembles a little.] I know Feliks, please...I wish to get my mind off what happened.

[ACTION]

[polishrule]

[He nods.] I get it, but like, you don't have to hide how you feel is all I'm saying. You've told me other stuff.

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[refinedmaestro]

[He runs his fingers through his hair.] I only want to be strong after all that's happened.

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[polishrule]

[He leans into the touch.] But you're totally not weak.

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[refinedmaestro]

[He sighs and continues.] I feel as though I am.

[ACTION]

[polishrule]

Why?

[He looks at him with a frown.]

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[refinedmaestro]

It is not only that I feel weak physically, but emotionally. I do not want to continue being that frail musician whom everyone thought I was.

[His face is turned away and there's a sad smile.]

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[polishrule]

[He rolls his eyes.] Who cares what other people think?

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[refinedmaestro]

[He blinks and is slightly surprised.] Well I certainly don't wish to be talked badly about.

[ACTION]

[polishrule]

Yeah, but like, who really cares if they do? What is it going to do? People totally say bad things all the time because they suck! not because you do.

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[refinedmaestro]

I've been gossiped about before though, told I had one foot already in my grave and was considered a walking corpse.

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[polishrule]

So? That's not true anymore!

[ACTION]

[refinedmaestro]

Sometimes I still wonder if I am a walking corpse.