god rest your lonely soul

[regretsregrets]

i've come to terms with the fact that happiness is not something to be strived for. it isnt a goal to set for yourself or something to be put on a pedestal. one can not attain happiness; it can be achieved on many different levels, but it is never a straight "today i am happy

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[electricshaver]

A-Bomb,
i've feltthe same way for quite sometime, but sadly, waht helped me out was questioning what a friend is, and who were they in my life. with that, any self doubt could be reinstated or devoured, we all go through rough times.

the future is what you make of it. when i think of the concept of the future- with my personal issues of never knowing beyond the week- i think of Shawshank Redemption. there's a line in SR that really gets me, 'hope is a dangerous thing if you let it.' it's really powerful how true that is, how having dreams or aspirations for a future can be dangerous.

i had the corniest dream a few nights ago that i was just reminded- i drempt th atwe were sitting outside, near a fountain that was basically abandonded in a courtyard from some swanky pad. no one around and we laid on the stoop of the fountain and razzled each other on feelings, aspirations and thought processes. i believe when i awoke, i had the widest smile ever.

i wish you the best Alisa, only the best.

[regretsregrets]

oh ive been questioning what a friend truly is for a while now, but i dont think ill ever know. I'm just content with the group of people in my life at this moment in time..and if tomorrow it changes, i wont let it hurt me. i will no longer allow my friends to define me.

that sounds like a wonderful dream that i wouldve actually loved to have been a part of..i want nice dreams like those. :)

[electricshaver]

the saying -you are whoever the company you make- can be true, but you have to keep a judgemental attitude about it, which is crappy. i like being friends with people that are disposeable, no attachment, just great company. is it fake? i am friendly, but really, how bff can you get with some random mooning on the highway with someone in an opposite car, or at closing time of a random bar?

meditating before bed, best thing i have ever done.