So alone

[reguy3]

I feel so alone right now. I don't know why, but I do. Like there is no one there. As far as I'm concerned I could be the only person alive, and not care. I don't feel like talking to anyone anymore. I don't feel like being around anyone. I'm tired of being the nice guy all the time. Its getting to me. As I'm starting to learn more about myself, I'

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[collisioninmind]

I'm pretty sure I've told you before that you need to start living for yourself instead of everyone else. I know you're the kind of person who likes to make other people happy, but when it gets to the point that what joy you derive from it is reduced to nonexistence... well, you do the math. It's not worth it. I pretty much "what you see is what you get," but I didn't used to be, and it just can't be taken for too long. That's why my arms are all scarred up and I've got half a year of therapy under my belt.

Congrats on the no smoking by the way. Don't worry about kicking the alcohol all at once right now, worry about the smoking. If you make it to like November you should be fine from there on. But the bottle's gonna have to go eventually too before your liver gets tired of it's living conditions and moves out.