x.x today...

[rei_the_chan]

well.. the last couple of days have been shit.. I'm in a rustle with jessica.. and Brandon asked me out today.. ._. what the hell! you don't spring that kind of thing on people! * sigh * the age really does bug me.. me and him did talk about it.. I told I'd think about it.. but most likely.. I'll say no.. I even talked to Dez about it.. and she

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[xdanikax]

so im thinking that if you have MSN you should add me so we can chat and such.
cowfreak_1@hotmail.com

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[rei_the_chan]

well of course! * adds * >.>'' we shall talk and such...

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[xdanikax]

woo!

[venus_chan]

Ah but see, you know what Jen and I have been telling you?
You're supposed to say 'SCREW WHAT EVERYBODY ELSE THINKS!'
And do what you want
It doesn't matter if your father approves
Hell, it doesn't matter if Dez approves
As long as it'll make you happy!
*Shrug* I don't disprove if that's what you've been thinking
Not that it matters
Mostly all I've worried about
Is you hurting yourself again
Emotionally anyways

Brandon is a good guy
He just doesn't seem to be able to handle women very well
And there is the fact that you aren't over Ryan
Which could affect any relationship you're in
Not just for you
But the other person
They might get hurt..
Dunno
Besides, for knowing Ryan for so long
Five months for getting over it..
Isn't really that long
You'll probably need lots more time to really heal, yo

We'll see how that goes, ne?

x.x

[rei_the_chan]

jessica.. I'm telling him no ANYWAYS!
me and him have already TALKED ABOUT IT!
screw what everybody else thinks? I've been doing that and it got me hurt in the end! so I have NO idea WHAT TO DO ANYMORE! I hurt myself either way! If I do listent to you.. I always get in a fucking fight and get all pissed.. and when I don't.. I realize I"m wrong.. and its WAY TO FUCKING LATE! Jennifer isn't even my friend, I don't even KNOW HER! She's nice, but half of the time.. when she's looking at me.. I don't even know how to ACT around her! I feel like I always do somethign wrong! I KNOW I NEED MORE TIME TO HEAL GOD DAMMIT! I"m trying to ignore him okay! ( Ryan ) and I don't care if people disapprove.. I'll do whatever I please.. ( well.. x.x most of the time, but I usually get in a fight about it.. )

[venus_chan]

"jessica.. I'm telling him no ANYWAYS!" Okay.. that's fine, I hope that'll be best for you *shrug

[rei_the_chan]

._. well.. for the 3rd paragraph comment... >.> the whole Ryan thing.. x.x I ended up getting hurt.. Dez thought and encouraged ( but didn't encourage the whole.. " favors " ) she said if you love him, prove it, and I did, in showing a " favor

[venus_chan]

Ah but see, that's what Dez said, not me. I was just wondering about what I said that led you astray

over all...

[rei_the_chan]

<.< I was pointing out things.. like.. how I shouldn't listen to dez.. x.x