ana phoned me for the 3rd time yesterday night ^^
but i'm just scared that she will have changed when she gets back. she is having such an amazing time without me (or so i get the impression) that i'm worried she won't need me or even want me that much when she gets back and it's scary. i'm actually afraid of it and it's worrying me.

nothing much happening, results for my gcse exams tomorrow, i don't care what i get but i know it's not going to make people i want to be proud, proud. going to tom's tonight again seems to be a local gathering of souls. anyhoot. bored bored borediddly come home ana ( Read more... )

BORED bored bored god it's so boring.

i have to say a huge thank you to frannery who's been more than a friend (but much less than a girl friend) to me through this and i reqally want to say thank you for it (btw i had more vodka) BYE BYE frannery wanKER

it seems whatever i do or say my family never seem happy with it. with me i guess. i can't wait to move out. perhaps this is one reason i hate holidays because i always have to spend it with them. anyways this song makes me feel slightly better.

anna said i can't be lonely because i was with people today, i still feel lonely anbd would rather be with anna for one hour than with any one else for a lifetime.. today i was really un enthusiastic on the phone to her which in all fairness was mean but it's just the way i was feeling, lethargic, and not really caring mood. shoot me.

i think even though anna is away i still looked for her. but it's one of those things. i know distance doesn't matter anymore because i still feel close to her even though she's hundreds of miles away. i'm glad she got there okay but i'd still prefer her to be here with me right this minute. she phoned me from france which is so sweet and i feel ( Read more... )

i feel so alone no-one to talk to because the people i find refuge in have hurt me (un intentionally)i feel like there's no one to turn to and it's just something i have to get over by myself.

kevin please don't do this

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