so today we were still arguing when i pointed out that he doesn't even know my real name. he at no point seemed interested in find out what it actually is. which seems very odd.

bleugh.

today we argued for the first time. at one point he said his ex is his best friend... and now i don't trust him anymore. i'm insanely jealous and i need a hug.

it's definitely not been a good day.

my brother really surprised me today. sometimes i feel really awful about my relationship with him, i was such a horrible bratty teenager to him. today i noticed how much he's struggled with my parents too. and although there's been thinly veiled hatred and looks of pure disgust thrown around the place like the lee family version of christmas ( Read more... )

recently things between me and my dad have been getting pretty strained. now my brother is qualified and working i feel like i should be too, which is silly in some ways because he's 5 years older, but i don't want to be so dependant on my family..mainly because we just don't get on very well ( Read more... )

i'm going a bit mad. so annoyed. mainly because i was right ( Read more... )

i'm feeling a bit off today. i don't know why, i can't think of anything that would have made me feel off, i just am ( Read more... )

my brother came to see me this weekend, it was all very pleasant. it made me realise how long it's been since i'd last laughed so hard. was nice to just relax for a while and to eat so much good food, and to glug wine and be merry ( Read more... )

today i'm mostly feeling like crap. not really sure why. feeling a bit sorry for myself and that. actually, i have a good reason to feel sorry for myself, i'm slowly but surely killing myself. not with all the free alcohol of late, but with the applications to law firms. hell knows i don't want to be a lawyer, but the only other idea i have is some ( Read more... )

i've been feeling really weird recently. so weird that i went back to swansea for just one night in the hope of some care and attention and a decent night's sleep. i think it's all this socialising i've been doing. it fucks with my head somewhat ( Read more... )

so...back to uni and work and the hum drum ( Read more... )