Things are confusing. So good So bad. I find my mind wandering...but to where i dont know if i want to explain. Life is such a vicious cycle. Someone flip my switch and tell me the morphines coming soon. Shut off my bad behavior i excuse with my heart. I hate feeling. But it feels so damn good. lol...more later.. sorry i cant share details ( Read more... )

So i forgot a few things on my last post and i also have some new topics ( Read more... )

Right now I am at Derek Carpenters with Krissy kate derek dan and michelle k. Its been a fun night. great to see everyone again, especially Krissy. Talking and talking like normal. Its still early for the two of us two though i'm sure. I havent seen kate in a while either so that was nice. And even longer since i saw michelle kovich. Its ( Read more... )

I went to sevin last night it was fun. Kinda a mellow night but it was still nice. I had to work this morning then drive to rochester for a doctors apt. which hurt and sucked because i had to get tests done. now i have to drive to southfield. It is going to be a long night but i rented my favorite movie for later (closer). Tomorrow I am going ( Read more... )

hmmmm where to start.... this was the best weekend i have had in such a long time ( Read more... )

I am turning over a new leaf. I am on strike from chatting. I am on strike from my friends. I am on strike from drama. I am on strike from a lot of things. I am sitting home with my girlfriend and going to work. thats it. No hassles. i am only allowed on LiveJournal (governed by myself). Just thought i would update on my new decisions. No ( Read more... )

I hate alcohol...My ribs hurt so bad i cant even stand up strait. Sarah, we are never doing jack shots unsupervised again. I threwup for 12 hours strait. So on a higher note: Last night i went to Nikki's. I also went to dinner with Al who just got back from Germany. It was nice. Then when we were at Nikki's we all played drunk driver and ( Read more... )

I love you. I hate you. I despise your attraction. You weaken me with flirtations i wish would start and stop all at once. I want you...to go away? I want you...to talk to me. I want you...to say you would rather have no one else. It doesnt matter what you say I dont believe it. I second guess you, yes you my mind. So stop thinking, i ( Read more... )

I wish you could see. There are so many things i try to tell you and you just dont understand. I wish you cared, cared like i do. I wish i could make you see everything you are missing. Everything i could give you. Sometimes you open up but then you seem to just forget again. One day you will realize all the things I have offered. The things ( Read more... )

WOOHOO! What a good day. I slept in an then accomplished a lot. I really needed a day away from the world. I feel much better. As for tonight i think i might get a hold of evol or linzy and drink or what movies. I dont feel like going out since tomorrow will be a long night. I cant wait. Canada with a big group of people is always alot ( Read more... )