i'm a shit shiver...likethis4everMarch 3 2004, 18:24:37 UTC
damn you. shit shiving is much better. i'm going to start saying that. i don't know what it means yet. but it means something.... i don't know what i'm saying, i haven't slept in days...
Jeska, I've been there hun. There are going to be stones in your path, they are put there by Satan himself. He wants you to have these thoughts, he desires your pain. Jeska, life might be great for now, but sooner or later you'll wake up and realize...you'll realize it. He died for you, he took much pain so that you wouldnt have to in eternity. All I ask is, compare this life, or the past few weeks/months/years to eternity. Its not worth is Jess. I love you and I dont want to shuve this in your face. This is your life, live it how you want. I'll leave you with this, Jesus loves you no matter what you do. You're special to me and everyone around you, we'll be here for you when you fall. He's real Jeska, troubles happen.
Anyone who looks at your situation and gets pissed over your questioning and doubting needs to begin taking serious looks at themselves. The strongest they should be feeling is sadness that you are hitting a lot of boulders, instead of getting uppety about you responding to your own life. Me, i'm one of those people who grew up with the organized religion, like most people in the area you live in. Biggest change I ever made was switching from Baptist, to Presbyterian, to Baptist again, then back to Presbyterian. Around about the time just before moving here, I decided I couldn't do it anymore. I know I can't relate to you about why you're doubting. My reasons are more out of resentment and anger then I think yours are (i'm not questioning, though, I flat out refuse all religion and really won't even talk about it). But who knows? Only you can decide that or figure it out. When you live in an area where organized religion is a part of society and the "norm", you could say, you're going to get people who seem to think bullshit lives
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haha silly gurl. I felt pissed off about it for awhile. mainly because people tried to tell me pretty much..that I was less than nothing if I didn't have god/jesus in my soul. I don't know I saw the passion and well um....I don't know what to think...ha. Iam a bit like indifferent if I had to choose what to be. I choose to be nothing. But then again it's like that with everything right now. Going to church can be interesting though. usually if it isn't organized :). But I don't judge people who attend church and enjoy it. Because when it comes down to it im as insecure without , the religion that is. I don't know it all appears to be completly irrelevent. But I'm just some 17 year old kid. What do I know? Not a damn thing that's for sure.
haha Kat you have no life, which is probably why I LOVE YOU! cept you do have a life and its better than mine since you dont spend it in school so Im jealous and I hate you too! DAMNIT! ♥
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haha yeh right ya fucking bitch! love ya!
-K@
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I've been there hun. There are going to be stones in your path, they are put there by Satan himself. He wants you to have these thoughts, he desires your pain. Jeska, life might be great for now, but sooner or later you'll wake up and realize...you'll realize it. He died for you, he took much pain so that you wouldnt have to in eternity. All I ask is, compare this life, or the past few weeks/months/years to eternity. Its not worth is Jess. I love you and I dont want to shuve this in your face. This is your life, live it how you want. I'll leave you with this, Jesus loves you no matter what you do. You're special to me and everyone around you, we'll be here for you when you fall. He's real Jeska, troubles happen.
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Jessica- - you already know how I feel, I will be praying for you
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nah...I lOvE yEwZ!!
-K@
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