Vater sie sind ein teil von mir.

Today I finally realized that I am the spitting image of my father. Which isn't a negative thing, but it certainly isn't positive. It's made me realize even more in depth of how I am an asshole to everyone around me and let certain things consume me.

Sometimes I really don't know why I'm still breathing and yet at the same time I know the exact ( Read more... )

i'm back from croatia ( Read more... )

I don't know what I'm going to do without Michelle for 12 days. I already can't wait until I get back.

Today... Kevin Jusino friended me on facebook, it made my day.

Cool really.

Besides that. Michelle took a walk with me today when I got upset and she gave me her jacket to wear because I was cold. :] I wore it until I had to leave cause I'm a fag like that.

I'm going to peee my pants or cry. Either or.

Meshe91: I love your smile .... n I love the way u make me laugh .... n for the last week ur all I tihnk about ....ok I am really bad at this ...

goddd. god. goddddd. LUSCIOUS BOX. god.  :] I can't even begin to express how happy I am right now.

I am so glad I didn't chicken out from wishing her a happy birthday ( Read more... )

How ironic.
I can't. I just fucking can't.
Every single fucking night ends in tears.
I need to get a fucking grip.

...It's an addiction and it can't be fixed.

BUT I WON'T BE MADE A FOOL OF...

[Edit]- I really should stop being so cryptic, it's pointless anyway. Who's the idiot who still reads Christina's lj? Me of course. So in group today (Our co- ( Read more... )

"if they just made drugs legal, they wouldn't have all these problems."- my mother.

This is exactly why I am where I am in my life. Because I let people like this get to me. I let myself hurt so much. It's pointless, but you know what go ahead and blame me please. Give me another reason to fucking hate myself. It's only took so much convincing to actually smile. It's taken so much to get me to talk and I'm finally there and I let ( Read more... )