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[removed_angel]

i was watching a Hanson video on launch today (yea... go ahead and laugh if you want, but.. i love them! they still rock butt in my eyes) I was wathing the video and I became sad. When they first came out, i 14, i was young and full of energy and happy... for the most part. I had my whole life ahead of me. I had all these choices, options,

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[sexmanot]

band. band trips. pep rallies. bus rides. dressing up in INSANE outfits for basketball games. chugging red bull. fighting with padded bats and hoping Mr. Snyder wouldnt kill us for doing it.

i know how you feel. i missed that before you did, cause i didnt have that closeness in my other band. we were friends, but it wasnt anything like the family we had at sehome. i miss you, mike, john doeden, Mr. Snyder, steph, and everyone else that graced my life through that amazing program.

but we must move on, girl. thats why i try to take pictures of everything. so i can remember the good times and what they meant to me.

it will get better. and life will move on. if you let it work out and try hard to do what you think is right, things will fall in place. always do.

i hope you do feel better in the morning. we truly need to see eachother this summer. everytime i read your journal or see a picture of you, i nearly cry. i miss ya girl.

-joe

[removed_angel]

I know i have to move on, but it is so friggin hard. I loved band. And i just wish i had the closeness now that i use to have back then. I don't have that anymore; i have three main people i see on a somewhat regular basis. I love them all to death, but sometimes i wish i would have kept in better contact with others from school.

*sigh* thanx for your support tho, i really do miss you too. SOOOO get your butt up here and visit me!
love ya joe.

[anonymous]

*sigh* i know how you feel ... this past couple of weeks i've just been kinda mopey and pointless... everything seemed so pointless. what am i going for? where am i going? would having a bf make it easier? maybe... but i use love as a distraction from becoming more. So i finally got back on my feet and went for something i want... freedom... find something you want and go for it. Do you want to become a physical therapist? start looking into that again. Start establishing yourself again. Remember your dreams! I think of all the things i claim to be and how i am not - passionate, motivated, ambitious... and every day i try to do a few things that fall under those categories... i feel like i'm more congruent with who i want to be... its progress... its moving my depressed ass out into the light little by litte. *hug* i love you. -Dana

[removed_angel]

See, i know, i just need to get looking and get out there, find my dreams and work on them again; but my dreams have changed sooo soo much in the past... two years, im not even sure what i really honest to god want anymore. Yes, at one point i wanted to do physical theapy... but that light flickered for a moment then burnt out. All of my dreams have burned out. I need to figure out, make a list of what ive always wnated to be and stick with something on that list! heh.

Love you dana, thanx for the support, i hope we both can overcome our slumps in life and end out on top!