sadness
Well this is just gonna be a bitching yet sad and controlled comment. complete opposites i know. Well tis under the cut should anyone care to read
Ben dumped me. This happened saturday night at a party, he said that he couldn't cope with me anymore, that at times i made him really unhappy. Seeing as it was at a party i left it till this morning to go round and talk to him.
I tried to be mature about it, tried to not let him see me break down and cry. I gave him the potions that we could do:
1 - Stay together
2 - take a break
3 - split up and saty friends
4 - split up and hate each other
decided straight off that 4 was not an option. ever.
he didn't like 2, thought twas a shit idea,
i desperatly wanted option 1 but he just isn't happy with me enough to saty so that only leaves option 3.
It hurts so much, my heart has shattered into a million pieces. I don't wnat this to be over, he just makes me happy, blissfully happy. I just want to break down and cry but thats not gonna do me any favours. I have to carry on. At least i still have him as a friend but thats gonna be hard to deal with, i mean he means so much to me still and for it to go from being lovers to just friends is gonna be so damn difficult. Today when i talked to him all i wanted to do was just kiss him, but that wouldn't have helped.
I'll carry on, i'll cry alone at night so no-one can see my pain, i'll fake those smiles when i need to. I know i'm gonna disappear into myself a bit, just be that little more self contained for a while, because thats how i'm gonna heal. "time heals all wounds" silly cliche.
Ben dumped me. This happened saturday night at a party, he said that he couldn't cope with me anymore, that at times i made him really unhappy. Seeing as it was at a party i left it till this morning to go round and talk to him.
I tried to be mature about it, tried to not let him see me break down and cry. I gave him the potions that we could do:
1 - Stay together
2 - take a break
3 - split up and saty friends
4 - split up and hate each other
decided straight off that 4 was not an option. ever.
he didn't like 2, thought twas a shit idea,
i desperatly wanted option 1 but he just isn't happy with me enough to saty so that only leaves option 3.
It hurts so much, my heart has shattered into a million pieces. I don't wnat this to be over, he just makes me happy, blissfully happy. I just want to break down and cry but thats not gonna do me any favours. I have to carry on. At least i still have him as a friend but thats gonna be hard to deal with, i mean he means so much to me still and for it to go from being lovers to just friends is gonna be so damn difficult. Today when i talked to him all i wanted to do was just kiss him, but that wouldn't have helped.
I'll carry on, i'll cry alone at night so no-one can see my pain, i'll fake those smiles when i need to. I know i'm gonna disappear into myself a bit, just be that little more self contained for a while, because thats how i'm gonna heal. "time heals all wounds" silly cliche.