Comments | rendergirl: Don't know what to do

rendergirl

Don't know what to do

May 21, 2011 04:39

I'm still undecided about the Yervoy trial. Honestly, if they offered it in Gainesville there would be no question, I'd do it. But the fact that it's 3 hrs away and would require money and alot of effort to do it, I'm willing to do it, but I don't think my parents are. Mom said tonight that if I wanted to do it, I would have to come up with $500 to ( Read more... )

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sl_walker May 21 2011, 11:10:06 UTC

Sending all the good juju I've got. ::offers hugs::

ladyithildiel May 21 2011, 13:04:26 UTC

*cuddles tightly* I'd say do the treatment, if it's doable, or perhaps look into something more definite nearer? Not too keen on those clinical trials, mostly because of what you say, that you won't know if you're on the real drug or the placebo!:(

Sill, worth a shot, both for the valid medical prevention against future troubles and for your peace of mind!♥

archanglrobriel May 21 2011, 15:46:09 UTC

*hugs you gently* For what it's worth, I totally understand. My radiation therapy is one of those things that could've gone either way - technically the doctor exised my cancer and technically that should be enough, but the radiation gives me a better chance that it will -actually- never reoccur so even though it's arduous, that's what I'm doing. My insurance company tried to dodge paying for it - claiming it wasn't necessary blah blah blah. I had to get a whole panel of doctors to say "It is if we say it is" so the insurance would cover it. I'm right there with you, I want to -know- I've done everything I can to keep this from coming back ( ... )

rendergirl May 21 2011, 16:37:30 UTC

Actually since I've written this entry my mom has said she would only require $250 for gas. I would have to have a place to stay, which Deni researched and the Moffitt Cancer Center might be able to help with that. Also I have a sister that lives in Tampa so we could maybe stay with her. I would really feel weird asking people for money because I'm always broke and I can't ever give anything back to anyone, so I feel like I don't deserve to get anything from anyone, ya know? I don't know. I still have a few places I can check that might help, like the cancer society. If it doesn't happen, I just want be at peace with just doing observation. Here's my s-mail...

1360 SW Nebraska Terrace
Fort White, FL 32038

Hugs

archanglrobriel May 21 2011, 19:12:44 UTC

I know how it feels to have that weird feeling about asking others for monetary help, I'm in a similar position. I always feel like I'm behind and scrambling to come up with some way to prove to them that I'm worth the effort/expenditure etc. It's an odd space and I think maybe it has something to do with being artists in a culture where that's so undervalued, especially monetarily. We feel like we're always two steps behind, or at least, I do. But recently other people have been coming forward to tell me about how our worth can be measured in other ways and our value is no less precious for lack of funds. That's been a kind of transformative message for me and it's on that I definitely feel applies to you as well. You are a bright and loving spark in what can be a pretty bleak landscape. It can make other people feel really good to give to you because of that - I'm guessing it would because that's how -I- feel about you. I wish I could help because I want to help. I'm glad that you're checking on resources and looking around for ways ( ... )