I wish I knew a guy that didn't mind giving me the affection I need... It makes me feel so utterly lonely... Life seems so meaningless... I feel so uncared for... So... wourthless... It hurts... so badly...

I haven't journaled in a while. I've lost weight. I'm about 165 now, so, just to let you know.

I feel my weight is probably a turn off. I'm working on it. Any way, I don't know.. leave me a message or something..

I just don't give a flying fuck any more... I just don't care....

Every one was so right and I can feel my eyes filling with tears as I write this because I knew and I didn't care. now it hurts so bad.. my heart is breaking.. I don't want to be alone... but I can't handle more heart break... I'm dying inside... I just want to die so I won't feel pain any more.. I wish some one would love me....

I HATE being single. HATE HATE HATE... The last few days have been a wave of depression.. on and off crying I guess. I feel all right now I suppose. I just worked out and I'm talking to a dude on-line. It's cool. He's from Portland and that rocks. So, I donno.. It makes me feel better as sorry as that may sound. One of my best friends kind of did ( Read more... )