I feel slow

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I hate being so ugly in make-up. I look like a little girl playing in her mother's make up! three hours, I had to sit and listen about *cosmetic line* benifits. the positive things about selling. go sell and be prosper, but I have a paper to write, and food to purge. thanks

why those eyes? why the stupid play fights? why the demeaning comments. those sad eyes.

you're friends have trained you well. you "you have the balls of this relationship." I am too egar to say I told you so. too quick to be defensive.

I am too angry for you. you never hear me. I am not good.

patrick and I are shredding. he feels it too. I see it. I am so angry. I am so bloated. I am so rude ( Read more... )

"karen, haven't talked to you in awhile."
"karen, I can't believe we ate this pizza by ourselves."
"Karen, I don't want to push her. she is fragile."
"Karen, you're craaaa-zy."
"Karen, you were out to kill someone in your scene."

hmmmm, let me almost think about it...nope not really. to be clarified as- I care so freakin much my mind is numb.it just doesn't stop. socialization and children vs. television, interesting. I have a good hour before media, to start that rough draft. I'll sit here in the same clothes I wore yesterday, listen to my roommate get ready for her ( Read more... )

today I am full of I can'ts. I am too tireds. I am too weak. I am not focused. I am not worthy. the world is so beautifully complicated. the girl who pisses you off for stupid remarks may be a wonderful artist or friend. the sunrise/sunset. teddy bears. diet beverages. last night my heart was beating in all sorts of crazy patterns. you know what ( Read more... )

I want to go buy and mail some things. I need to be writing a paper. I am on the computer. ew... cards, need to send cards. I am in such a great mood. SO I am pumped for this french party. I think I will make a mouse. oh my professor wants to start a relay for life team, I am so in. Her husband has cancer, i wanted to ask were he was getting ( Read more... )

today today today. I have become a computer whore. on all the time. it would be okay if I weren't ditching my other responsibilities. Like I don't know...classes, patrick, my roommates. well what are my other responsiblities? there has to be something else. I can't feel like this irresponsible for nothing ( Read more... )