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Tatsumi and I-- He took me for the first time last night. Making love- I don't know what I should call it. It... felt strange. Intense. Better than his fingers, but at the same time nothing remotely similar. I don't know if he could tell I was nervous or not. He was gentle, patient even when I could tell he was hard as anything.
*quirky grin* I think I managed to do it right.
Physically it hurt at first- burned, where I hadn't stretched enough or the lube didn't reach. Tatsumi Seiichirou stopped for a minute- nearly told him I wouldn't break, but he kept going, kept talking to me. It helped, having his voice there.
And then, of course, it got better... ^.~
He held me afterwards, kept saying my name over and over, wanted to make sure I was okay. I don't think I've ever felt that loved before. I don't know what I was expecting, but I didn't--
I wanted him that close. Couldn't seem to let go of him even this morning. I think he's the same way, he kept touching my hair, my shoulder while we were making breakfast.
At the risk of understatement-- I like this. A lot.