Well its finally happened...... I know the whole truth....
Aryn, someone I cared about (and still do) has officially thrown me aside. And why? Because of Rani. And here (sadly) is the proof, behind an LJ cut.
PART IV- RAINY DAYS
Best friends secretly are forgotten
As I look up and am downtrodden
By the one who took my place
Now I am nothing but disgrace
You say you care but really lie
I can see it in your eye
If you cared so dearly for me
You would just set me free
But this is part of me also
I am making it up blurry with snow
There are parts of spite and malice
That drip from our savior’s chalice
Seeping their way into my brain
I swear to God I will go insane
I wish that we had never met
Then maybe I would be able to forget
The way you cared for me
So deeply and affectionately
And that you could do that still
If only I would bend my will
But stubborn strong is how I must stay
I must just go down my own way
And if together is god’s will
Then we will meet ever still
Maybe she will leave your life
That would erase all my strife...
I hate to admit it but it’s true
That all I want is to be with you.
All alone and by ourselves
With no one around, no one else
Or at least no other kin
I’m sure he could fit in.
Yes, I am selfish and cruel.
It’s my way, my only tool.
I know nothing else apart.
From empty mind and empty heart.
Makesme both sad and grumpy. It's all bull...... she says I don't care anymore. That's utterly untrue. But... and I hate to say this... I fully expected it.
PART IV- RAINY DAYS
Best friends secretly are forgotten
As I look up and am downtrodden
By the one who took my place
Now I am nothing but disgrace
You say you care but really lie
I can see it in your eye
If you cared so dearly for me
You would just set me free
But this is part of me also
I am making it up blurry with snow
There are parts of spite and malice
That drip from our savior’s chalice
Seeping their way into my brain
I swear to God I will go insane
I wish that we had never met
Then maybe I would be able to forget
The way you cared for me
So deeply and affectionately
And that you could do that still
If only I would bend my will
But stubborn strong is how I must stay
I must just go down my own way
And if together is god’s will
Then we will meet ever still
Maybe she will leave your life
That would erase all my strife...
I hate to admit it but it’s true
That all I want is to be with you.
All alone and by ourselves
With no one around, no one else
Or at least no other kin
I’m sure he could fit in.
Yes, I am selfish and cruel.
It’s my way, my only tool.
I know nothing else apart.
From empty mind and empty heart.
Makesme both sad and grumpy. It's all bull...... she says I don't care anymore. That's utterly untrue. But... and I hate to say this... I fully expected it.