I can't beliebe that i haven't written anything in a month. or well. more than a month. i knew it would happen though. summer always catches me offguard and i always end up super busy. this one doesn't seem to be much different. it's definitely a far cry from the depression i hit 3 days into summer vacation, that's for sure ( Read more... )

it's been a long time since i wrote anything down. and it's so late. and i really will try to write down all my thoughts and feelings and all the bullshit tomorrow. or soon. but for right now im just gonna say it.

peanut butter.fruit salad.

well now there's finally a decent flow of people that are getting home and i'm able to have some human contact. strangely the first person i hung out with was joey. and god only knows i didnt see that coming. but he let his hair grow long and hes in love. and he told me all about her. and although now im the most pessimistic human being towards any ( Read more... )

put an X next to the movies you've seen ( Read more... )

finally, a lot of you are starting to come home and it's getting to be like summer. this isolation and sad bullshit is reaching its close and i can hang out with all my friends. and one group of people i'm particularly excited about seeing. it's gonna be a good time...and i can get tan. that's all i'm gonna say about that ( Read more... )

last night, at around 1AM - i wrote a journal entry that im pretty sure no one saw..considering it was written so late..and its 640AM now. but to those of you that could have seen it - ignore it. i was mean and spiteful and although i have some reason to be, i dont hold as much contempt as you think. i don't want to be the person that i was in that ( Read more... )

first off, i want to say that i'm sorry i haven't been online for the last week. i just got off the phone with HP and apparently I had some corruption with my laptop. big surprise. I was on the phone for an hour, so one would hope it's fixed now. for 5 minutes. anyway ( Read more... )

tonight, joe and i broke up. i'm heartbroken and i can barely breath from the pain. none of you can understand..or maybe you can. but i want to share with all of you why i have maybe been a little distant. ive written 2-3 journal entries and kept them private about the pain of it all. tonight, i decided that i wanted to share with everyone... ( Read more... )

tonight i read your journal. it was a survey that i have in my journal. all you had to do was put an X next to the things that were true..or the things that you've done. next to the one that said "love someone or miss someone right now" you left it blank. i lterally had to stop talking to everyone..get up..go sit on the couch in the living room and ( Read more... )

tonight is the first time we haven't talked all day in 9 months - 3 days.
it doesn't feel right..
i hope you're having fun and you're feeling better.
i miss you a lot..ilu.
i guess if i cant say goodnight to you i'll say it here..goodnight. ::sigh::