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Teach me how to say goodbye
I chanted 'not gon' cry' to myself on my way to the gate, as if the words would congeal and form into a valve, each repetition tightening the already leaking floodgate and preventing it from spilling entirely.
As the plane took off, the nausea of the ascent hit me in waves, a heavy weight pressing me firmly unto my seat. My stomach churned and for ( Read more... ) -
One Last Time
Today is a quiet day.
I'm alternating between lying on my back while typing away on my phone and just closing my eyes to let the fact that I am on my sister's bed in London permeate through every cell in my body.
I'm here.
I've been here for some time.
I won't be for long.
Oddly enough, the last thought doesn't make me dread the morrow as it had ( Read more... ) -
Helpless
"What is this?"
I watched in horror as the man tasked to check the scan of our bags asked his colleague who was standing in proximity to us. The latter moved towards the screen as I tried to think of anything illegal I might have accidentally slipped in my bag or possibly by a knave who wanted to see me hanged.
They leaned closer to the machine as ( Read more... ) -
Mr. Bicycle Man
On the eve of my birthday, I'm thinking about you Randy, of how you came into my life at a time I decided that, no, I don't need friends and how meeting you made me realize that... mmm okay maybe just another one ... and okay fine, having friends ain't so bad after all... but then you killed yourself, you bloody wanker. A carnival of unfortunate ( Read more... ) -
Yume Yume
"It's just a misunderstanding that your dream has run away, isn't it? What's really fleeing is your self-confidence, am I right?"
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Lemon
It's been about roughly a month since I decided to write more...and uh..uhm, things definitely went south, and by south I mean spiraled out of control and sent all of us in yet another abysmal journey of fire and destruction. I could write about how this was going to be the best vacation my sister was supposed to have, because one, I feel leagues ( Read more... ) -
we're all different yet the same
That it appears that I'm the only one he can talk about it both honored and pained me. First of all, I can't always be by his side and at that moment, I wanted nothing more than to hold his hand (no homo, cough) and hug him. Secondly, as I've always told him, my mind is not exactly the soundest, but the one thing he can be assured of though, is ( Read more... ) -
changing seasons
It's been a long while since I sat down and poured myself out into paper and/or any form of electronic journal.
Looking back, I believe it started when the catastrophe that fundamentally changed the dynamics of our family transpired and inspired in me emotions I did not think I was capable of harboring. Emotions so....new and so....vile... in an ( Read more... ) -
Cumberland
- The post below is a recovered draft dated god knows when. ALSO, hi, LJ. I guess I'm posting entries again -
I was once again reminded of how inescapable my fate of being a dramatic uke is, when, as the plane jerked into motion, the image of my very persona being pulled towards where my sister and mother were formed into my head; a wispy, ( Read more... )
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