Am I Really That Invisible?
Someone confirm I exist before I just fade away...
Wow...I get ignored online...at home...what's next?
I can post a million things to a message board, and I'm lucky to get one bland generic reply. I can work for hours on things only to get a reply in a few days about it...and even then, it's only appreciated if I did the work for someone.
I can talk at home, but unless I throw a tiff, there's no way to know that I've even been heard. Maybe I should take my Uncle up on his offer, maybe when he gets a house I should move back in.
Or maybe there's just something wrong with me and that's why people get pissed when I say they're ignoring me. That I'm tired of being invisible. It's not like I want constant attention. A simple word or something after I say something to acknowledge that I've been heard.
Lately, pathetically, the only time I've not felt this way is when playing World of Warcraft. Because there's always someone on, I'm in a position of power, and people look to me for guidance. I'm actually needed. Whereas here...
...here I just take up spare oxygen.
I feel absolutely worthless, like honestly I won't have meaning until this baby is born because then it'll actually need me to be there for it. Because until it's old enough to form an opinion, it's not going to ignore me. That's pretty sad, ya know?
Shouldn't there be some other thing to live for before I have the baby?
Wow...I get ignored online...at home...what's next?
I can post a million things to a message board, and I'm lucky to get one bland generic reply. I can work for hours on things only to get a reply in a few days about it...and even then, it's only appreciated if I did the work for someone.
I can talk at home, but unless I throw a tiff, there's no way to know that I've even been heard. Maybe I should take my Uncle up on his offer, maybe when he gets a house I should move back in.
Or maybe there's just something wrong with me and that's why people get pissed when I say they're ignoring me. That I'm tired of being invisible. It's not like I want constant attention. A simple word or something after I say something to acknowledge that I've been heard.
Lately, pathetically, the only time I've not felt this way is when playing World of Warcraft. Because there's always someone on, I'm in a position of power, and people look to me for guidance. I'm actually needed. Whereas here...
...here I just take up spare oxygen.
I feel absolutely worthless, like honestly I won't have meaning until this baby is born because then it'll actually need me to be there for it. Because until it's old enough to form an opinion, it's not going to ignore me. That's pretty sad, ya know?
Shouldn't there be some other thing to live for before I have the baby?