Freedom means not fearing.  Freedom means choosing one's own mental state.  Freedom means dancing in the rain.  Freedom means dancing without music, or with any music at all.  Freedom means loving yourself.  Freedom means needing nothing and wanting everything.  Freedom means choice.  Freedom means voice.  Live free or die.

to write a long essay about how the state and most common religions celebrate a passive acceptance of predefined roles to fill, limit agency, and exert hegemony over meaning and identity.

I am well again.  I think.

More importantly, I am a genius.  I powered through the rest of my annotated bibliography, it's shaping up to be a great paper.

I am invincible.  Nothing can hurt me unless I let it, and that doesn't have to mean that I shut people out, either.  I am coated with a semipermeable membrane of diamonds and steel.

I am a rock, ( Read more... )

Don't you hate those nights when you can't sleep?  They let you realize just how long you normally spend sleeping.  Last night I went to bed at a decent hour, then was woken up at midnight by a friend in dire need of emotional support, then fell asleep after helping her out with that, then woke up at two and was violently ill, then woke up a couple ( Read more... )

Also... whoever the fuck has the IP address of 68.58.45.5 should probably fucking say shit to my face, not anonymously.

Why is everyone so unhappy?  I don't get it.  And this is pretty hypocritical since less than a week ago I wanted to kill myself... but I'm happy right now.

That said, I'm lonely. as. fuck.

Claire and I are living similar lives now that we're apart.

In the last month, I have:

Cut my hair shorter than ever before.

Had sex with two new people.  (or tried to)

Decided I'm at least moderately bisexual (though I haven't acted on that at all).

Smoked pot.  (That's clearly a metaphor for non-illegal activity, cops.  It means I sat under a tree ( Read more... )

Alcohol was probably a bad idea.  Maybe I was just lonely, and thought that this would get somebody to sleep next to me?  Who knows ( Read more... )

Tonight, I'm either having a cookout (if weather permits) or having people over to watch movies.  If you can read this, you're probably invited.  Call me if you need directions.  Show up maybe sevenish? Six thirty?  I'll make sure to be here all late afternoon so there's no real worry about showing up to an empty house ( Read more... )

I am invincible, I can do anything.

My new resolution is to get stronger every day.