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feeling weird.  lonely leared and disappeared ( Read more... )

 i hate this apt.  it makes me sick.  everything about it ( Read more... )

 stayed at my mom's house last nite.  basically sat here on her couch all day.  took a short nap.

staying again tonite.  i love the feeling of this house.  it's not like i grew up here, but it still fits that role.

shelter.  from reality, from the anxiety, from the emotional pain, from stress.

been reading Memoirs of a Geisha.  almost done now, thank ( Read more... )

 i should really be doing these anxiety exercises that the doc taught me.

i was in massive pain this morning again.  worries me for my upcoming trip back east.

i feel godawful.  my health and body in general are deteriorating.

bleh.  trouble concentrating or focusing again.

why is this happening?

 another great, damn song.

Romeo + Juliet (Indigo Girls)

A love struck Romeo sings the streets a serenade
He's laying everybody low
He's got a love song that he made
He finds a convenient streetlight and he steps out of the shade
And says something like
"You and me, babe, how about it?"

Juliet says, "Hey, it's Romeo!
You nearly gave me a heart attack"
Yeah ( Read more... )

 wow.

sorta feeling miserable again.

Jewel is sort of amazing.  lyrically.

my stomach is still all fucked up.  fuckin A.

should i just break out the smokes?  it's that kind of morning.

seriously, though.. these lyrics are amazing (didn't realize how long this song is.. but it's important to post):
(it's easier to follow while listening to the melody. ( Read more... )

 was in so much physical pain last nite that i cried myself to sleep ( Read more... )

 didn't even realize i posted as recently as i had ( Read more... )

 feel myself regressing five years ( Read more... )