i got a root canal today. it wasn't so bad aside from the fact that the dentist forgot to give me that numbing shot dealie and just kinda jammed a big rod into my gums. but eee, codeine!

i'm seriously freaking out about dying and i dont know why its just that its so permanant i dont want anyone i love to die i dont think i could take it i couldn't take it i'm shaking and my heart is beating so fast and i want to hug my mom and cry but i can't because she'll think i'm crazy oh my god theres just this awful sense of dread like ( Read more... )

leaving for coachella tomorrow.

the girl gets up each day and creates herself out of cloth and paint. she writes at night about men who looked and boys who touched. the writing is never enough. confession is insufficient. absolution never comes in the articulation, only in the penance ( Read more... )

i never want to say 'how can you do this to me?' ever again.

yesterday was livejournal and i's 4 year anniversary
kitty and i's 3rd month too.

kitty lufffs jenny's cow.

After spending tens of thousands of dollars at Stanford's state-of-the-art eating-disorders facility, a Palo Alto teenager cures her anorexia with punk rock.

tell it to the whole world, every sentence, word, and syllable from her lips are so fucking useless. they float and are eaten like air only to be purged in a futile attempt of martyrdom (at least in this case). i built everything without a foundation, and around it, i laid a sprinkling of hair. hair to be admired on a pretty girl, hair to be ( Read more... )

baby, there ain't enough room in this world
for perfections like you and monsters like me.