methadone is just not enough

[restin256]

i dont like being alive anymore. i dont like the people ive met and the things theyve done. i dont like the drugs ive taken to make me think i could postpone it. i don't like the eyes ive been seeing through, i dont like the brain ive been thinking to. i have known all along that i have the power to change things, to make them right for once, but

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[sarepean]

I have a weird opinion on this. I do feel that the existence and goals of every life-form on the planet and in the galaxy is futile and that, ultimately, nothing we do will matter.

I do not, however, believe that nothing matters. We all amount to nothing, so that means that the end result of all of our relationships with people are nothing--- but, then again, a math problem amounts to nothing just by throwing in a simple zero. Does that mean that all of those numbers equal nothing? No, it just means that the end result is nothing.

Just try and enjoy the ride. It doesn't matter where you'll end up--- where we will all end up. It matters how you get there.

[flam217]

didn't we talk about this?
What if life does mean something...

you've inspired me in more ways than you can imagine.
I would be devasted if you were gone.

[theskippy]

Your right, life doesn't mean shit. I cannot imagine the amount of rage and pain you feel. I've been there before, about to pull the trigger and end this mockery of existence. In the end I decided that being free from the fear of death made me more powerful, free to do what ever I wanted. I did some very risky things when I was 18-20... I should have died then, but didn't. I realize now how stupid I was. Sorry for rambling. The thing I would say to myself back then is "Remember where you came from, remember what you are."

[emorocker41]

I haven't been on this account in years. I miss you a lot, and I am so sorry for everything that ever happened. Oh my God, I can't believe how much I miss you right now.