senior year has been a wrecking ball for me so far.
i'm applying to lesley university in boston, with high hopes. i have limited funds, and parents that won't give even that if i decide to go to an art school, you see. but i have my hopes on becoming an art therapist, anyways. so hopes for boston & liberal art colleges.
other than that, it's: arcadia, towson, mcdaniel, st. marys, seton hill, marywood and pratt. no order of preference, just picked due to either location, expense or the fact that they offer art therapy as a major. i just don't know.
I go to The School of the Museum of Fine Arts. you should go there. its beautiful, small, well credited, you get into the MFA free, and the facuilty is amaazing (all actual working artists, not just professors).
Good luck, and your parents should relalize that there is money in art.
i call in sick to find the time, to locate my misplaced motivation, and all i have to show for it are eyelids which feel like sandpaper. god how familiar. and your words are amazing.
do you like driving? adventures? space? When I lose all motivation or something is taking over my head, I drive. That sounds kind of blah, I know. But considering I won't drive on freeways, I only drive canyons, it really helps. I pick a destination, someplace half an hour to an hour away, and I just drive. Once I get there, half my thinking is done so I turn around and come home. It's satisfying. I have plenty of time to drive as much as I want, really, but most of the time I'm missing class or something to just go explore. I go to the beach a lot. I don't know if there's a beach near you, but the coastline is always wonderful. It's always breezy and the ocean mist is amazing. I can't really play on the beach because I have extremely sensitive skin and burn within a few minutes, literally, but it's still nice. I lose motivation a lot. I get depressed a lot. I get confused a lot. Driving alone really helps me. It gives me time to put my head back on straight and all my negative thoughts out of my head altogether
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driving alone has the same effect on me, as well. the nearest beach, however, is three miles away. i've made it a habit of going out to the woods and sitting and admiring it all when i need a smoke break. that, that helps -- that is, if i'm not feeling too guilty at the time about the fact that i'm smoking. the headaches, i think it's time to call the doctor and get my prescription changed, so hopefully that'll be fine soon.
i plan on re-reading this whenever i'm in this mood again. the thought of then is the time for winter nights and screaming streetlights is exactly the imagery i want tucked away just-in-case. you've got a way of making me see the other side of things.
i really like the drawing. and i feel the same way. except i don't even have seven colleges to apply to, which i should be really nervous about, but i've got my heart set on one. which will be very difficult to get in. and i can't come up with essays. i sit and sit and wait for inspiration but it hasn't come to me yet. submitting a bad essay will be so depressing. blah. the eyes thing too, i can relate to. last night i especially did not get enough sleep and my eyelids have felt so heavy all day.
that's exactly what i'm worried sick over: submitting a terrible essay. i think i'm in fine in all other aspects, i just put so much pressure on myself, believing that everything depends on this.
but lady, you'll be fine. and for not enough sleep: i have no reccomendations, because it would be like taking advice on how to file your taxes from a con. but i hope that you get some tonight. ♥
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where are you applying my dear?
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i'm applying to lesley university in boston, with high hopes. i have limited funds, and parents that won't give even that if i decide to go to an art school, you see. but i have my hopes on becoming an art therapist, anyways. so hopes for boston & liberal art colleges.
other than that, it's: arcadia, towson, mcdaniel, st. marys, seton hill, marywood and pratt. no order of preference, just picked due to either location, expense or the fact that they offer art therapy as a major. i just don't know.
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you should go there.
its beautiful, small, well credited, you get into the MFA free, and the facuilty is amaazing (all actual working artists, not just professors).
Good luck, and your parents should relalize that there is money in art.
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god how familiar. and
your words are amazing.
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When I lose all motivation or something is taking over my head, I drive. That sounds kind of blah, I know. But considering I won't drive on freeways, I only drive canyons, it really helps. I pick a destination, someplace half an hour to an hour away, and I just drive. Once I get there, half my thinking is done so I turn around and come home. It's satisfying. I have plenty of time to drive as much as I want, really, but most of the time I'm missing class or something to just go explore.
I go to the beach a lot. I don't know if there's a beach near you, but the coastline is always wonderful. It's always breezy and the ocean mist is amazing. I can't really play on the beach because I have extremely sensitive skin and burn within a few minutes, literally, but it's still nice.
I lose motivation a lot. I get depressed a lot. I get confused a lot. Driving alone really helps me. It gives me time to put my head back on straight and all my negative thoughts out of my head altogether ( ... )
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and miss, thank you.
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You're welcome, dear. ♥
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the eyes thing too, i can relate to. last night i especially did not get enough sleep and my eyelids have felt so heavy all day.
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i think i'm in fine in all other aspects, i just put so much pressure on myself, believing that everything depends on this.
but lady, you'll be fine. and for not enough sleep: i have no reccomendations, because it would be like taking advice on how to file your taxes from a con. but i hope that you get some tonight. ♥
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