Angst
I lost myself yesterday and I haven't been feeling any greater since.
There was so much negativity going on and on about me for the entire day.
"OMG you're so skinny!""Why are you so skinny?! Don't you eat?!""Eat more!""I'm not going to take any pictures with her/ standing beside her, she makes me look fat.""Hey, give some of those fats to her, she needs it.""Why are you wearing these clothes? It makes you look skinnier!"
Funny how people are not so discreet with their comments when it comes to a skinny girl. I hate it. I hate every comment everyone makes of how skinny I am. You think I don't know?! It's the same as how someone is fat. You don't go around asking people why they are fat or if they ate too much. Why do you do this to skinny people like me?!
And I really hate it when people say they don't wanna stand next to me if we were to take a picture together. The look and the tone they give when they speak, "she makes me look fat." FINE, EVERYONE DONT STAND NEXT TO ME THEN. FINE, I WONT BE IN ANY STUPID PICTURE.
I am not anorexic. I do want to get fatter. I just can't. And I've been falling sick the past month, I haven't had the appetite to eat. What with this crazy cough, every mouthful of food results in a coughing fit. And IT IS NOT A PSYCHOLOGICAL THING. Screw you if you think it was. I am mad enough now, I've had enough of this shit.