I have decided to quit my job as soon as I get a new one. I cannnot handle it any more. I got chewed out and sent home from work Saturday over some damn tubes. I haven't cried that hard since me and Michael broke up. I was so upset. He is being an asshole. So hopefully by the end of today I will have a new job. Then we'll see how he runs the place ( Read more... )

We did it ( Read more... )

I went to Indiana this weekend for a family reunion type of thing. It was fun just to get away from work for a few days. Of course, as soon as I showed up there for practice today, the drama began again. I suppose it will never end ( Read more... )

I started thinking tonight while I was on the stand. And yes, I was still watching the pool, don't worry. But I was thinking. This school year, I kissed a total of 5 guys. To some that might not seem like many, to others, that may seem like a lot. To me, it seems like a lot. Especially since I only dated one of them. So if that many guys are ( Read more... )

So my job sucks really bad right now. My manager is driving me crazy. He chewed me out on Saturday for having a bad attitude, which I do, but then for some other stuff which wasn't true. I can't help having a bad attitude when he forgets everything we tell him and the other managers are dumbasses. Then he actually called my dad yesterday to tell ( Read more... )

I like him. I don't know why. It won't happen, no matter how much I want it to. But when we went to his party last night, he just looked so cute and I just wanted to kiss him so bad. And I was just standing there, wishing he was mine. But he's not. and I don't think he'll ever be.

So yeah. Had a few break downs this week. I have never been able to handle stress very well. My mom tells me to stop crying in front of people - if I could stop, I would. I'm really trying to relax and not be so hard on people though. And maybe I should spend less time at the pool. I have been up there every single day since it opened. Maybe that's ( Read more... )

So for the next month I'm pretty much gonna be busy as hell. I get up every morning at 5:30 to get ready and drive to memphis for my exciting class of geology. I wear my bathing suit to class because as soon as it is over at 10:30 I leave for the pool for swim team practice at 10:45 until 12. Then I have to work every night from 3-8 or 9. Then I ( Read more... )

Maybe the past is like an anchor holding us back. Maybe, you have to let go of who you are to become who you will be.

I have never been one to deal with change very well. I just don't like it. I have always wanted things to stay exactly where they are ( Read more... )