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[retrojane]

romance inthe ER: you know, i'm not a master of words, but i really want to express my sadness in my abandoned livejournal. any ideas on how?
elizavetaaaa: why are you sad :[
romance inthe ER: you'll understand as soon as i get this entry under way
elizavetaaaa: :-\
elizavetaaaa: just write what you feel i guess.

Comments

[mihiryouthere]

snowball effect,

i may not know much, but i'd suggest talking as much out as possible. because it can be done, and frankly, it needs to be done.

[retrojane]

too much pride.

i know it needs to be done, but neither of us have the guts to do it. my pride is too overwhelming and i'm scared of confrontation and his ego is the size of texas.

but i need to try. or else i'll just fall apart.

[highwaywars]

i'm sorry that i can't give you the courage you need to get through this, and i know i don't know anything about this problem, that well, anyway.

but if it's something that needs to be done, and you know it needs to be done... you'll find a way. maybe it is confrontation, maybe it's time. but if - as elizabeth has said - you guys have had problems before, it's just a larger one you need to survive through.

and i don't know if this helps at all, but i have faith in you to do it.

[retrojane]

aw, thank you so much, sam!

i just really honestly hope we can get through it. but just talking about it won't help. i'll need to see things change. but i don't know if i can change myself quickly. but, i will try to change nonetheless.

[silversleeves]

we've already talked, so you know how i feel about this.
and reading your replies, i really need to say something else so yeah. you have already changed so much to keep this relationship alive. but you can't keep changing forever, you'll end up a totally different person and even if that helps keep the relationship going, you might not be happy. cause the most important thing is staying yourself, and being happy with that, with who you are. and i think he's the one who needs to change some more, and then you two can meet on common grounds. i feel like i'm not articulating myself well. basically, don't change to fit into some perfect girlfriend mold, and you guys need to talk this one out.

[retrojane]

i know what you mean, liza.
but honestly, he told me himself that he's not willing to change but he wants to stay in the relationship. i gave him an ultimatum, but he won't budge. he said that the only reason he constantly put me down emotionally was because he wants my self-esteem to fall, and that way, it's easier for him to change me. i'm not even exaggerating that quote.

sad, no?