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1. List some things you want to say to 20 different people but you know you never will.
2. Don't say who they are.
3. Feel free to comment, but don't confirm or answer anything
1. I look up to you all the time; because you're so carefree and look without worries. I know you have worries. It's okay to be genuinely upset in front of others a times. I agree we need to hang out more, but then I may blow it off or it never goes into plan. I'm sorry.
2. Who knew the girl I sometimes saw and looked so mean would end up being my friend. Now you've changed and I find you selfish - but I don't disregard the good things about you. Just remember it's okay to let go of one closer to you just for a small time and make room for your other people, even if where you go you may not like the area - remember these are your friends - what should it matter where you are.
3. I brushed us off for long period of time and we've done odd ass things. I wish I was a little more open with you; it's always laughs or arguements; but never a nice sit down and a shoulder to lean on. Are we embarrassed?
4. Goddamn - I wish you would come to Otakon. I want to know more about you so I can put a little more information in this one.
5. I love my random visits to see you. We never see each other enough and I remember when you dyed my hair and had nice long serious talks. I want that more often. I wish I had your heart.
6. I wish you hadn't gone to Japan but I realize this is one of your dreams as many others. I'll be jealous of you around all those japanese chickies. I wish we had had done more than go to the mall and spend 5+ hours in arcade. One day when you come back, let's go to Ruby Tuesday again - I will help you finish those mini hamburgers. ...Maybe I'll be ready then.
7. I've known you all my life. You are still an empathetic little shit. But I'm glad you still stand beside me - I know how to be my true self with you and I'm not ashamed. I wish you would admit wrong doings more often and not be so stubborn.
8. I HATE you were my first kiss. You are two faced. I regret that one week of nothing.
9. I've known you for all my life too and we've never been so distant as we have been within this past year. Now you're married. This makes it seem possibly so worse. I wish we could go back to time when we were little and threw leaves at each my resulting in poking you in the face with a stick and my getting shoved into a dryer.
10. You're probably the closest gay friend. And we're not even that close. I enjoy our small talks and rampage on genders at time. Continue to be strong - you'll find your yellow cake.
11. You're married too. I'm glad it was someone that I introduced to you five years ago. You two will share the best marriage I have seen anyone ever have. You have that will power in you.
12. I wish you weren't such an ass and cared a little more about me rather than about how I am to be brought up into this world. If anything, that is making it my downfall. You do not realize how you take after your biologial father's mistakes. I think you like how I am being dragged down. Is this entertainment?
13. Thank you for being patient with me all these years. No one knows this period of time better than you - but without a weight/child on my shoulder. I appreciate you lettng my try to find out what I am and who I really would like to become.
14. You creep me out and how dare you hit on my sister. I never understood how any girl thought there was something about you.
15. If you guys go to JR I will seriously hunt you back down in Japan and rape every single one of you. I will be a little nicer to smiles.
16. Stop messing with fans minds. Seriously. Put up the guest band you retard.
17. We are soul mates I swear. We need to meet and have just as hot and kinky sex as those fanfictions you love to write. Dominate me.
18. I would turn straight as a 2x4 for you. No jokes.
19. You use your monther; you aren't in school. What are you going to do with your life?
20. No one understand you better than myself. A lot of friends don't understand how I can still be around you. They don't understand. They can hate/dislike/not understand all they want, but you're here. You always are. And I'm there. I won't ever be with you but that's okay. I have everything I could ever need without a title of a relationship. I need you the most and I honestly can't live without you. New Year's was a sign. It really was. I've never had anyone closer.