I love my iPod: A Letter to Everyone
Daniel says to be concise and that every letter can be summed up in five to six paragraphs. I can’t say I’ve ever been brief and to the point before, but there’s a new time for everything. I think the best way for me to express this is through writing out my main points and then fleshing them out. If I had to choose five statements to sum up my summer they would be….I love my i Pod. I do not need you. It’s just not that serious. I would be missed. I can wait.
I love my i Pod, and I don’t care what anyone else thinks about Apple or me for enjoying my Nano. I love my new hair cut because it’s cute and perky. I love my fake tan and nails and plan to keep both of them up once I get a flowing income again. And let it be known I love my clothes from American Eagle and Pac Sun. I was wrong to criticize anyone who enjoyed any of the above aforementioned. All of them were things I never gave a chance because I never felt good enough to own or live the life style they each represent. But on the flip side of that I’m not gonna criticize anyone who doesn’t enjoy those things, but I hope it’s not because you were like me. Don’t let anyone let you think you’re not good enough for any life style you may want to pursue.
I do not need you. You being any person that isn’t me. I love all my friends and I want them all in my life, but if they do not consider me a friend it does not make me any less of a person. I am not undeserving of anyone’s friendship, and their absence in my life is purely their burden to bare not mine. I have held on too many people’s hands for too long. I want to be there for my friends, but it’s not my job to hold their place when they wander from my life. If they want to come back they are welcomed with open arms, but you’re going to have to keep your own seat warm from now on.
There is absolutely no reason for my life to be as stressful as it is. I am only 20 fucking years old, and I’m too young and at the same time to old for this melodramatic bullshit that entrenches itself in every facet of my life. My life is just not that interesting or that serious as I seemed to think it was. Having talked to my aunt I know what it’s like to have a serious life at 20 and it sure as hell isn’t being pushed around emotionally by some ex boyfriend you still have feelings for. From now on it’s all about looking at the big picture because like Lex Luthor learned from a German poet…”A person is not the things they said the last conversation you have with, but who they were the entire time you knew them.” It’s all about the big picture, and right now it’s just not that serious.
Despite what I have been told if I left I would missed. Maybe not by everyone but there would be someone out there that would generally miss my company. I’m not saying that Japan Club would crumble and burn without my guidance, but I know in my heart it would not be nearly as much fun. I am a fun, caring, witty, innovative, and talented individual. So I stand here and now to say I refuse to be pushed out of my haven because some certain someone thinks they have the X Box of influence tried to convince me that no one would miss me. But I would feel a little better if I had this confirmation first hand so anyone who is willing to stand with me will be greatly appreciated and the favor would be returned in the future.
Through everything that has gone on I have found that the one truth is that anything that is of some worth that you can wait for it. I can wait for things to realign back in the universe. It won’t happen today, or tomorrow, or even in a month… it could possibly never happen, but I can wait to find out. I’m only 20 I’ve still got a few years to wait, and besides if I couldn’t wait for it then it would obviously isn’t worth it. But waiting doesn’t not intel holding. My life is not going to go on hold, but I’m not going to give up on something that has worth to me. Only I can decide if it’s not worth that wait so please note that no one else can tell me otherwise.
Finally I would like to say I love the friends that have stayed with me through the transitions and tears you are the ones who hold a special place in my heart and can always count on me to return the favor at anytime. For those who abandoned me or caused me pain I do not hate you. You are welcomed back in my life at anytime no questions asked, but don’t be surprised if your room in my heart was converted into a game room. You left me of your own free will so if you want that place back you have to come back of your own free will. I’m not chasing anyone down anymore. I’m not that hard to find if you really want to be back in my life then you’ll make the effort.