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[retsuookami]

And still, petty insecurities and an inability to participate in something everybody else is participating in, just a conversation even, a fear of rejection, that little niggle inside me that hurts, really hurts when they say something that shouldn't even faze me

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[luciernaguita]

i know you said don't psychoanalyze, but...
i don't think that's ego.

[princesvalntino]

And still, petty insecurities and an inability to participate in something everybody else is participating in, just a conversation even, a fear of rejection, that little niggle inside me that hurts, really hurts when they say something that shouldn't even faze me.
The rest of me knows, 'don't take it seriously, they're only joking; you can always chime in at any time and say something clever; you know how this works, speak up; you're good at this, own them.' But that little part of me...

*hug* i know how that one feels. i wish i could tell you that it will go away. it will bury itself for a while, yes, but it always seems to come back. and it sucks. a lot.