the loss of an hour and the loss of things greater

[reumji]

i just realized that the two most loving elements that i've had in my life are gone now, and neither died naturally. my grandmother's emergency surgery didn't go well and it was a family decision to pull the plug and not let her go on for another day or two, and my cat was put to sleep. after my grandmother died i knew that i'd never be loved

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[worthlessness]

this might not seem like much but i love you unconditionally and i mean it.
i know what you mean about losing all the good things in your life that's what i feel happens to me all the time

[reumji]

i know you mean it.

[thelimboqueen]

im sorry you feel this way, i am often judgemental, i admit. i'll try to be better, because i do love you and i dont want you to feel this way.

[reumji]

thank you for being lovely. it's not me feeling a certain way, it's just me realizing i've got to be extra aware of what my role is and what everyone else's role in my life really is. it's not a lonesome feeling or a depression, it's more empowering than anything.

[thelimboqueen]

okay, im glad its empowering, because it made me sad reading it buti guess i read it wrong, which is good. i never try to figure out roles, so i admire you for doing so.