Musings and Domestic Affairs
But, as he walk'd, King Arthur panted hard,
Like one that feels a nightmare on his bed
When all the house is mute. So sigh'd the King
Muttering and murmuring at his ear, "Quick, quick!
I fear it is too late, and I shall die."
~*~
Now with that silliness behind us and still with the result of Alessa's foolishness to come there is much to do.
Ran, I do not know if you know our Hotaru well, but she has been put in thrall to a silly boy.
If you would be so kind as to seeing to the accounts today, I will go over them with you later tonight, but I have put off ending the Itachi boy's foolishness too long.
There should be no trouble with planning expansions for a nursery, but I want you to familiarize yourself with the House, and servants Considering that Alessa has made herself bedridden for a time.
Walter, darling, I should like to speak with you this evening when you rise.
Rest if it pleases you, for we shall have apointments to keep.
Henry, dear, you and I must speak again soon. You have been so quiet...I miss your company sarpe'. Your continued memory disfunction concerns me.....Thaumaturgy and Eldritch Majicks do not mix happily. I have a rather forboding sense that your memory is affected by the fractured souls that gave you life...
{Private Musings}
I have never had the need or desire to write my thoughts forthe sake of making an order to them.
'Tis strange....Perhaps I am becoming soft? I can see no difference in my awareness....save something difficult to grasp.
I am cross with Alessa for her decision, yes, but...I feel as though I can understand the reasoning behind it more.
Rangiku has had several conversations with me regarding the nature of love, and how her perception of it differs so vastly from mine.
I understand mortal love...have always understood it. Perhaps better than many mortals, themselves.
But it is only recently that I have developed an understanding for the nature of why Yuuji wishes to give his Count a child without the bonds of love that Rangiku shares with me.
Or the reasoning behind Hotaru's desperate desire to do good in the world. Even that foolish boy's manipulation can not change that....her nature will win out, and soon, I think.
I sleep now. Truly sleep.
It is...strange...and yet rather pleasant to have that oblivion, if only temporarily.
( Rangiku, I think, is on to the barrier my mind creates between her conscious and subconscious. Her dreams are interesting to watch.)
I havenever had dreams of my own, and only viewed those dreams I deemed interesting enough to warrant attention.
...Well, that or the threat of the Dreamsneak or Alexandros worming their ways in...
...I saw my mother in Alessa's dreams not long ago. I see my daughter in Rangiku's now.
'Tis passing strange how such things interest me now as they never did before.
I wonder if I am capable of dreaming, trapped as I am in this mortal shell...
Hmph.
Mortality.
I loathe it more with each passing day...I am meant to walk in darkness, and death as a scion of both, but not subject to either. The darkness still obeys, but death? Ah, no, death is not mine in this place.
Here....here, it is subject to many rules, and I am but a messenger.
Purgatory without the cleansing pain. What point it serves I still have trouble agreeing with, but at least it serves as a useful piece of neutral ground.
Mmm.
Perhaps I should look in on dear Yuuji with the Count's old lover making an apearence.
Let us see if the witch is who I think she is
{/Private}
Like one that feels a nightmare on his bed
When all the house is mute. So sigh'd the King
Muttering and murmuring at his ear, "Quick, quick!
I fear it is too late, and I shall die."
~*~
Now with that silliness behind us and still with the result of Alessa's foolishness to come there is much to do.
Ran, I do not know if you know our Hotaru well, but she has been put in thrall to a silly boy.
If you would be so kind as to seeing to the accounts today, I will go over them with you later tonight, but I have put off ending the Itachi boy's foolishness too long.
There should be no trouble with planning expansions for a nursery, but I want you to familiarize yourself with the House, and servants Considering that Alessa has made herself bedridden for a time.
Walter, darling, I should like to speak with you this evening when you rise.
Rest if it pleases you, for we shall have apointments to keep.
Henry, dear, you and I must speak again soon. You have been so quiet...I miss your company sarpe'. Your continued memory disfunction concerns me.....Thaumaturgy and Eldritch Majicks do not mix happily. I have a rather forboding sense that your memory is affected by the fractured souls that gave you life...
{Private Musings}
I have never had the need or desire to write my thoughts forthe sake of making an order to them.
'Tis strange....Perhaps I am becoming soft? I can see no difference in my awareness....save something difficult to grasp.
I am cross with Alessa for her decision, yes, but...I feel as though I can understand the reasoning behind it more.
Rangiku has had several conversations with me regarding the nature of love, and how her perception of it differs so vastly from mine.
I understand mortal love...have always understood it. Perhaps better than many mortals, themselves.
But it is only recently that I have developed an understanding for the nature of why Yuuji wishes to give his Count a child without the bonds of love that Rangiku shares with me.
Or the reasoning behind Hotaru's desperate desire to do good in the world. Even that foolish boy's manipulation can not change that....her nature will win out, and soon, I think.
I sleep now. Truly sleep.
It is...strange...and yet rather pleasant to have that oblivion, if only temporarily.
( Rangiku, I think, is on to the barrier my mind creates between her conscious and subconscious. Her dreams are interesting to watch.)
I havenever had dreams of my own, and only viewed those dreams I deemed interesting enough to warrant attention.
...Well, that or the threat of the Dreamsneak or Alexandros worming their ways in...
...I saw my mother in Alessa's dreams not long ago. I see my daughter in Rangiku's now.
'Tis passing strange how such things interest me now as they never did before.
I wonder if I am capable of dreaming, trapped as I am in this mortal shell...
Hmph.
Mortality.
I loathe it more with each passing day...I am meant to walk in darkness, and death as a scion of both, but not subject to either. The darkness still obeys, but death? Ah, no, death is not mine in this place.
Here....here, it is subject to many rules, and I am but a messenger.
Purgatory without the cleansing pain. What point it serves I still have trouble agreeing with, but at least it serves as a useful piece of neutral ground.
Mmm.
Perhaps I should look in on dear Yuuji with the Count's old lover making an apearence.
Let us see if the witch is who I think she is
{/Private}