三十八
So Adrastus went back to his mother. Hmmm.
I know I've been absent the last days. I've been thinking. In retrospect, it probably wasn't the best of times. Stupid. Had I been more diligent, I could've seen more of Adrastus' messages. What little I've grasped sort of makes sense in conjunction with the appearance of his mother: "the womb is quick", "hear the beat", "it weeps", "her teeth". What's the "beat", though? If it were to be the ticking... there's a piece missing there, or several. But that would have been absurdly easy.
I'll just keep it in mind and see if it's information that will be useful someday. As long as the situation has returned to what goes for "normal" here, things are quite alright after all.
In the meantime, a conclusion at least: I won't be leading a half-assed life here any longer. If I'm here to stay, that would not be a good way to live. I won't be as brash as I've been just recently, that was - that was just reckless.
Maybe "living my life fully" also means realizing this - where my boundaries are. That's what it all comes back to - boundaries. Things that can be done and things that can't, and those it would make sense to strive toward. Or those places where you have to say: it's enough. Here is where it stops.
... a day in honor of mothers. I like that.
(OOC: Rin has been slinking about the City being not terribly subtle, looking for some clues, but will not talk about it unless asked.)
I know I've been absent the last days. I've been thinking. In retrospect, it probably wasn't the best of times. Stupid. Had I been more diligent, I could've seen more of Adrastus' messages. What little I've grasped sort of makes sense in conjunction with the appearance of his mother: "the womb is quick", "hear the beat", "it weeps", "her teeth". What's the "beat", though? If it were to be the ticking... there's a piece missing there, or several. But that would have been absurdly easy.
I'll just keep it in mind and see if it's information that will be useful someday. As long as the situation has returned to what goes for "normal" here, things are quite alright after all.
In the meantime, a conclusion at least: I won't be leading a half-assed life here any longer. If I'm here to stay, that would not be a good way to live. I won't be as brash as I've been just recently, that was - that was just reckless.
Maybe "living my life fully" also means realizing this - where my boundaries are. That's what it all comes back to - boundaries. Things that can be done and things that can't, and those it would make sense to strive toward. Or those places where you have to say: it's enough. Here is where it stops.
... a day in honor of mothers. I like that.
(OOC: Rin has been slinking about the City being not terribly subtle, looking for some clues, but will not talk about it unless asked.)