i've slept one hour tonight. i've spent more time crying than i did when my dad died. i want to be alone.

have i been forsaken by god? why have i been placed at this juncture? i cannot face this day ( Read more... )

LOOK AT YOUR FUCKING ARMS. LOOK AT YOUR FUCKING ARMS. LOOK AT THEM ( Read more... )

why does it get so hard?
why do we hurt eachother?
i feel like we become entirely different people when this happens.
i feel like we lose sight of how much we care for eachother.
we NEED to start understanding eachother better.
i love you, and i'm sorry.

i feel that i am losing my best friend. i can't say anything to change it. it's not even my fault. i feel so lonely right now. i feel like i'm going to throw up again.

top secret shit. nigga ( Read more... )

i had thought these days had passed ( Read more... )

05:10 am
i think i just had a breakdown.

06:43 am
who else would make me such a beautiful cd?
noone.
who else but you would ever make me feel so unquestionably loved?
thank you for helping me see that love is all i need. and that i already have it.

you'll never know how much you've let me down.
you'll never care, either.

edit:
scratch that, but i still say its the thought that counts, if you know what i mean

i wish i could break a promise i have made. i am a man of my word, and i regret placing my words where i have. a lifetime spent in this abyss that is my head ( Read more... )