*pulls up his soapbox*
Warning... This is pretty fucking angsty....
This Jaql is PISSED....
This post is going to people... well a good majority of the most important people in my life.
I am going to do, what I am going to do. Your job is NOT to give me your opinion on it. I appreciate some helpful advice, but if I don't follow it, then move on. Realize that I am my own person, and guilt trips will not work. I'm not saying I don't love you all, but please do not make my life any harder on me by dwelling on how I won't follow your advice.
Also, if you have a better idea of what to do with my life than me, fine, suggest it. But I want you all to know, I'm here in Greensboro for awhile, and I'm probably under my parent's roof for awhile. Do I want to be, or do I need to be? HELL NO, but you know what, it's better than barely scraping by and paying bills. On another note, photography jobs are hard to come by. I'm going to be looking for nice jobs that pay more money, but get off my back about it. I'm tired of people making more than me, saying that I just need to get up and go get a job. If it was that easy, I'd have done it by now. Work in the spiraling depression I've been in, and you'll see it's not so easy.
Next off, I know I've been new to my sexuality and that aspect of myself lately. It's my business, in all honesty. I've decided to tighten up the ship.. I'm only in it for serious people looking for LTR's. I know it's weird, but what I am missing in my life, is mental intimacy. Not that I can't function without it, but I'm an adult and will have to learn. If anything, I need to work on myself.
Every since May, I've gave a shit what others think of me, and it's about time that stopped. You can give me advice, tell me what I NEED to do, and how to straighten myself out... just don't be surprised if I don't do what you say. I am very lonely, and I'm very VERY vulnerable... but that whole period where I look to others for what I should do is over. I'm doing what I'm going to do, and I'm making my mistakes, that is the only way to learn. And if I never would have made the biggest mistake of my life in May... I'd probably not have grown this much... so perhaps.. it was a blessing in disguise.
And on another note... I've realized, by the amount of time people have spent talking to me, who my real friends are. Think back, and if you haven't talked to me since September... then maybe I'm not that important to your life, and perhaps, giving me advice, isn't the best idea, since your not even in it.
To all my friends, Especially Erika. Thank you for being there for me.
~Azi
This Jaql is PISSED....
This post is going to people... well a good majority of the most important people in my life.
I am going to do, what I am going to do. Your job is NOT to give me your opinion on it. I appreciate some helpful advice, but if I don't follow it, then move on. Realize that I am my own person, and guilt trips will not work. I'm not saying I don't love you all, but please do not make my life any harder on me by dwelling on how I won't follow your advice.
Also, if you have a better idea of what to do with my life than me, fine, suggest it. But I want you all to know, I'm here in Greensboro for awhile, and I'm probably under my parent's roof for awhile. Do I want to be, or do I need to be? HELL NO, but you know what, it's better than barely scraping by and paying bills. On another note, photography jobs are hard to come by. I'm going to be looking for nice jobs that pay more money, but get off my back about it. I'm tired of people making more than me, saying that I just need to get up and go get a job. If it was that easy, I'd have done it by now. Work in the spiraling depression I've been in, and you'll see it's not so easy.
Next off, I know I've been new to my sexuality and that aspect of myself lately. It's my business, in all honesty. I've decided to tighten up the ship.. I'm only in it for serious people looking for LTR's. I know it's weird, but what I am missing in my life, is mental intimacy. Not that I can't function without it, but I'm an adult and will have to learn. If anything, I need to work on myself.
Every since May, I've gave a shit what others think of me, and it's about time that stopped. You can give me advice, tell me what I NEED to do, and how to straighten myself out... just don't be surprised if I don't do what you say. I am very lonely, and I'm very VERY vulnerable... but that whole period where I look to others for what I should do is over. I'm doing what I'm going to do, and I'm making my mistakes, that is the only way to learn. And if I never would have made the biggest mistake of my life in May... I'd probably not have grown this much... so perhaps.. it was a blessing in disguise.
And on another note... I've realized, by the amount of time people have spent talking to me, who my real friends are. Think back, and if you haven't talked to me since September... then maybe I'm not that important to your life, and perhaps, giving me advice, isn't the best idea, since your not even in it.
To all my friends, Especially Erika. Thank you for being there for me.
~Azi