It hasn't alwaysbeen this way.
I remember brighter days
before the dark ones came
and stole my mind and
wrapped my soul in chains.

Now I live among the dead
fighting voices in my head
hoping someone hears me
cryin in the night
and carrys me away.

Set me free
of the chains holding me.
Is anybody out there
hearing me?

--Lauren.

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I never was the crying type.

I guess I never cease to surprise myself.

I wrote a song today. The first in months. It made me feel better.

I wrote her a letter which also made me feel better.

Not completely. But paritally and if thats as good as it gets for now, then I'll take it.

--Lauren.

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This sucks.

I'm in Jacksonville and she's in Lakeland.

195.3 miles. Precisely.

This is killing me lately for some reason. I thought fifteen months was going to fly and she'd be back before I realized it but now I'm realizing she's not here and I still have to wait another year.

Ah. This is what we get.

--Lauren.

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So I made that last post not realizing what will be happening a week from Friday.

I'm goin down to Lakeland.

With Jenna, Addie, and Hannah + Addie's Dad.

To see Hannah.

We're going to a Teen Challenge graduation on Friday night and then Hannah has a nine hour off campus pass on Saturday.

This is exactly what I want right now. I'm so freaking ( Read more... )

I miss my friend, who is currently in Lakeland.

I guess that has a lot to do with recording that song her and I wrote three years ago.

I know thats where she's supposed to be, but sometimes I hate that I know thats where she's supposed to be.

August 2007. In due time.

--Lauren.

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I'm not trying to impress you anymore.

I am pretty tired of trying to better myself to impress other people.

God's impressed. Thats enough.

--Lauren.

Hush now the storm is over clouds have passed away.
All at once I felt it break no traces of the pain.

Why are you so confusing?

-Lauren.

Make your way over here, sit down by this fool, and let’s rewind
C’mon, let’s go back and replay all our scenes
You can point out the hints, the clues, the twists and the smiles this time
All the ones that slipped by me

This summer I think I subconciously grew up.

Even if only a little.

--Lauren.

Lord, I wanna yearn for You
I wanna burn with passion
over You and only You.

Question: Why do city girls wanna be in the country and country girls wanna be in the city?

Why aren't we just content being where we are?

Anwser: We're human. Being content is not an option. Ever.

--Lauren

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So, here I sit. Five until 1 in the morning. Well, it's five until 2 back in Florida ( Read more... )